JezmalayHodge

True story https://www.wattpad.com/story/203958047

JezmalayHodge

This is a short story dedicated to my ex. 
          You wouldn't let me be me but you would be you. You seemed nice in the beginning. That is the only way I could see you. I wanted to be the perfect girl. I just wanted to please you. I told you that I love you, then you said that you love me to. I told you all my secrets, You held me when I was crying. You told me how you felt about me, but it turns out you were lying. In the beginning our love was sweet, then it started slowly dying. You started paying attention to everyone else. You cared for everyone else. Just put me up like a book on a shelf. Yet I still believed you loved me though you couldn't love your self. You told me no one else would love me like you do. I believed it. That's probably why I stayed around to get mistreated. I believed everything you told me. I never told none of your secrets. Then you started creeping, you got mad when I found out, so you would beat me. 
          I cried alone in the room in the bed where you would usually lay. I no longer believed I was pretty, smart or even relevant or worth the time of day three years. I was so dumb but love does weird things. I was so gone. I use to lay in the bed missing him.  I began to find myself ,years later I found me a gentleman. He taught me how to love and he loved me back. I learned from my ex that practice isn't always perfect but things get bad before they get better. I found a new man and he made me feel better.  #IAmMe #BeYou