Panda Dude

idk if I told anyone this but my new account is @Ugly_Tacos I mean if anyone cares ig

also, y.a.s.q.u.e.e.n that ended on 655 characters and this one on 80.

Hey. Hey. Hey. Hey. Yah suicidal gosh darn old meagan that I love but i love the non-suicidal meagan more because then i dont have to be scared out of my shit. HEY, STOHB IT. I dont want to worry about losing you, but if thats what it takes along with a lot of other complicated things, then im willing to do it to keep you by my side. i have been from day 1. i love you, and miss u, and i cant wait until i get to see you again. (btw, this is my main account for posting stuff now so like, just talk to me on this account when you can txt bc i actually remember the password to this one and can txt u in school) I MISS U SHO MMOOOCCHHHHHHHHHHH *smooches*

They only talk to her, because, she looks like a total prostitute, 'kay? Us prostitutes have to stick together. If your a prostitute and you know it clap you hands. If you clapped ya hands, call me.
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          Where the fuck did this come from?! I need to lay off the ramen. 

Seriously....is someone up because I need someone to talk to...

Guys.... I am debating on whether I should change my username. I'm seriously just really bored on my phone at 5 in the morni-OMG ITS 5 IN THE MORNIN'!!! NO WONDER I WAS SO FUCKING EMOTIONAL WHENEVER I STARTED TO THINK ABOUT MY USERNAME!!! *coughs* I didn't cry. Imma big girl and I don't cry from stupid memories. Ok, now I'm just typing whatever comes to my head and I'm just to lazy to backspace it. So imma leave it there. Tell me if I should change my username or not. Meg dog out!! *drops a mic that came out of no where* ....Shutup....always wanted to do that....

 Cool are you looking for questions about you or ?

@TheMockingMurderer ok what kind of questions

Wazzup y'all!! I'm doing a Q & A book starting next Thursday so give me them questions for I can answer them.

Okie...... *hides behinde a chair* I can explain. I know I said I would update but I just can't. I love righting or doing whatever the crap I was doing and letting other ppl see how stupid I am but I just can't. In between family, school, just over all life is making it hard for me just to look at my updates. Especially since I have to sneak on here cuz my dad obviously like to take away everything I care about and make me do things i dont wanna do even if he's not trying to and just trying to protect me and make my life as good as it can get. And I appreciate that but its making to just quit everything. Like everything I do is wrong. Like its not good enough. Ppl usually uses that to do better but.....its just hard for me. On my birthday I texted this stranger because I just wanted to die..... And then my parents found out. It wasn't pretty. I rode in a vehicle without a seat belt sometimes just wanting to be in a reck. And then I saw my mom cry. The same day I was planning to cut myself till I bleed out. Her friend's daughter was lost (Its good. She was found and now safe.) And since I was texting that man not so long ago she said that she couldn't just imagine seeing one of her kids missing.....I made my mom cry and I hated it. That's manly what's keeping me going. I've always have that thought, "Do ppl really care about me or do they just pity me? And would anyone care if I died?" And I still have suicidal thoughts. I can't stop that. And when I wake up a lot I think, "Does it really matter? What is the point. I'm just a failure." I'm at the point where I don't give a crap how shittu ppl think about me because I already know that I'm just trash. So please do me a favor today. Walk up to someone and make there day. It helps. And mom, if you somehow read this, know that I'm only alive because I don't want to see you cry.