@JustMichaelKK
Managed to post a new chapter while struggling badly. I hope it turned out well for those who still reads the story.
losing hope that people still do anyway.
Ugh sorry if this sounds depressing or whatever.
Not gonna lie sometimes i wonder if i will ever get better, it's been 8 years and nothing ever seems to be getting better. It only gets worse.
The joy, the pleasure, the confidence i once had has been sucked out of my life. I'm not sure what i'm living for anymore, i don't feel real, only someone who's watching a show but in first person all the time. Or perhaps a dream? I don't know. All i know is that i am not getting better.
Sorry, i'm not sure whether writing this is the right thing. . . I promise i'm fine.
@Glitteryonion Yeah i get what you said but i don't have Asta's mindset or anything. Sorry if i sound dramatic by what i said so far. Nice to hear it helps you get out of bed though.
@JustMichaelKK you have a black clover character as your pfp, so I know you'll get it when I say "YOU'RE NOT DONE YET!" when life is tough, think "what would asta do?" not insanely helpful, but it's gotten me out of bed on quite a few mornings.<333
@Glitteryonion I have grown used to feeling like this, especially the feeling when you feel very empty like a void. There's not much to do about it after so long.
Just turned 12am where i am... Happy new year i guess. Even if its a new year nothing ever changes.
@JustMichaelKK I think you answered my sister's announcement on birthdays, and she always checks the zodiac sign afterwards. it's okay haha, just happy cause I've never been able to find any! thank you for unknowingly satisfying my search!
@Glitteryonion I think i am ? Sorry i'm no good with these zodiac stuff or whatever they are called.
I'm worried if i'm neglecting my writing again so sorry if there's no new updates. Lately i've been struggling very much and there's nothing i can do about it other than distract myself with games or listening to music, so sorry once again.
I'll start writing again once i'm a bit better.
I haven't been able to work on the christmas special chapter today because well christmas was today atleast for me and its been chaotic honestly... i'm super drained and i'm literally just like begging to go to my room and sleep but no ones allowed to leave until the guests leave apparently. I feel so awkward sitting here writing this, i wish this would be over soon.
It's even worse sitting here and not being able to say a single word for the entire day, i mean yeah i barely speak either way because it's very hard for me to form words and i usually speak quietly but it still sucks not being able to say anything.
Sorry for suddenly like venting here i hope it's fine, i just needed to get this out somehow... :'(
@Glitteryonion I dislike seeing christmas decorations a few months before december. I remember seeing christmas decorations in shops in just september and i could not believe i was seeing. I was like "Hello?? It's only september and there's already christmas decorations!?!?" And there was people setting up their christmas tree already... Like relax there's still a few months before december ;facepalm; I would love to see halloween being celebrated in my country for once, i wouldn't mind going outside and witness people in costumes and spooky decorations in peoples yards. It sounds so fun i'm jealous ;sob;
@JustMichaelKK if halloween just became a permanent state of being, I wouldn't complain. it's one of the few holidays I like. I think I'd like christmas more if shops around my home didn't start stocking decorations in mid-october. I get to actual christmas that I've had enough already. I don't do much for halloween, so I suppose I don't traditionally celebrate it either. it sort of becomes a state of mind I'm in while doing stuff and dressing. more of an exaggerated fall vibe. lmao, the upside down smile is real!
@Glitteryonion Goodness i could never have a conversation with a stranger xD it would be very awkward. I get what you mean by not knowing what face to make when everyone sings while looking at you, i usually have this 'upside down smile' and feel nervous because of the stares. I'm more of a person who doesn't want to celebrate holidays because i don't find much joy in them or just don't care but i admit i like Halloween. The sad part is that my country doesn't celebrate it aargh.
I'M LITERALLY EXPLODING BECAUSE MY FRIEND MADE AN EDIT OF WILLIAM AND PATRY AHAJWMDMDXKCDJN ITS SO GOOD I WISH I COULD SHARE IT HERE ON WATTPAD SO YALL CAN SEEE AAAAAAAA
IT'S DECEMBER 24 AND THAT MEANS AJAHSHSJAJ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BELOVED PATRY AND WILLIAM <333 MY LOVES HEEHEJEJJE AND THAT MEANS THE BIRTHDAY SPECIAL CHAPTER I MADE FOR THEM I WORKED ALL DAY ON IS POSTED FOR ANYONE TO READ! <3
Christmas is just one week away, how does everyone feel about it ?! ☆ I'm not sure if y'all are celebrating it on the 24th or 25th but i'm celebrating it on the 24th!
@mistymochi7 OMG YESSS OUR SWEETHEARTS BIRTHDAYS!! I plan to make a Christmas special chapter and a Birthday special chapter for them! It won't be a part of the main story though if you get what i mean. Shshdhsh i also wanna make a drawing of them celebrating in the snow AAAAAAA
@JustMichaelKK I'm celebrating on the 25th! tho I'm also really excited for the 24th cause it's William and Patry's birthdays!
500 READS!!! I'M SO HAPPY !!! AHSEHRJFJCJFBFBDBDN
If you guys don't mind me asking a small favor i changed the description of the patowill story and i would like to ask what you guys think about it, you can be 100% honest!
@mistymochi7 Thank you Misty! The old one didn't really fit with how the story is currently going so i was like i need to change it. I'm happy you like it! ^^