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"The good kid" has never been written up for bad behavior. Classmates will shamelessly and openly talk back, do things specifically to piss off their teachers..but the second there's a lapse in judgement out of very typical for this kid type of anxiety that they immediately apologize for..? Blasphemy! BOo HoO YoU BrUISEd mY EgO aNd UnDerMiNEd My AUtHoriTy bY nOt TrUsTiNg ME, A TEACHER to HaNdlE YoUR DiSAbLED SiStEr AnD gEt HeR Up A StAIrCAse! SoMetHinG NoT ExcLuSIVe To Me! I must speak with your father...! (Cry me a river, I apologized the moment I implied it even though I secretly hate you and pray you get hit by a truck every day.) And then dad yells at me and tells me to apologize again tomorrow...She didn't even make a scene but it made me so uncomfortable I've had three panic attacks in the last two hours.

What am I doing with my life? Why did I even publish that stupid fic, man, I was just so overstimulated from years of an OC living in my head I couldn't take it anymore, it's not even engaging even though I'm so passionate and try so hard to make it nuanced I feel like it's not as good as I wish it was in practice, or what if it's actually terribly written? Or offends someone? IDK. (TT-TT) I wanna become a blanket burrito and hide in a dark corner forever and ever, I can't believe I've done this.

Do you ever just want to curl up into a fetal position and d!e of shame? Hopefully the answer's a no, but right now that's how I'm feeling not that it matters. -_-

Sooo..hi, to anyone reading this! I'm new here!