Phoenix

I haven't been on here in forever and I've got stuff to take care of, but I think I'll try writing again. I used to love it when i was 12-15 and even though I cringe at my past works, I was havin fun and it helped me deal with life. So who cares if it's cringe? I moved onto drugs and that stuff is way worse than whatever embarrassing fic you wrote about Gerard Way when you were 14 could *ever* be. I'd rather have an outlet that I'm mildly embarrassed about that actually improves my life skills than an addiction that took so much joy out of my life, that I'll be fighting off as long as I'm alive, to cope with life. 
          
          I'm not doin stuff that could kill me when I could literally just write myself smoochin a cute guy to deal with my issues and if any of y'all are considering doing drugs/drinking, don't. You're not special, you'll get addicted and it'll make your life hell. You can always recover. I'm recovering right now, but I have scars and for a while there, I didn't know if I'd make it. Don't put yourself through that, learn from my mistakes.

(back from another hiatus lmao) 
          
          Anyway BLAIRE WHITE'S GETTING SUED FOR DEFAMATION LET'S FUCJING GOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QUEER PPL STAY WINNING!!!!!!

Welcome back duckling!

Hey lol I'm back from the dead and have no idea what to write. But I kinda feel like I want to again, so I'm here :} (also having issues with the app so I'll see if this even posts )

I was gonna make a new chapter today since I had it written but I had to make a cake for my emotionally abusive father and it was the most draining thing so now I'm gonna go cry instead
          
          
          
          
          
          anyway fvck father's day, idk who thought it was a good idea, but fvck this stupid "holiday" And shout out to everyone else in the same boat, y'all are braver than any us marine

Me: *disappears off the face of the earth for a few months
          
          Also me: hmmmm I wonder why I’m so sad and starved for any sort of social interaction 

I fvcking hate it here I’m getting secondhand embarrassment from realizing that I put an among us chapter in a book back before it died and wasn’t cringey to enjoy. Which could open up a pretty interesting discussion about cringe culture and why you can’t enjoy anything on the internet, but it doesn’t change the fact that I’m still facepalming lmao 

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          I NEED TO STOP LISTENING GHOST BC NOW ITS ALL I CAN FOCUS ON!!!! LIKE THE MUSIC??? THE AESTHETIC??? EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS BAND IS SO PERFECT AND I AM IN SIMP VALLEY!!!!!! LIKE IT DOESNT MATTER THAT THE NAMELESS GHOULS ARE NAMELESS BC IM IN LOVE WITH THEM!!!! AND THE LEAD SINGERS VOICE IS JUST!!$$ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! ITS SO GOOD!!!!!!!!!! CONCLUSION??? IM AWFUL WHY CANT MY BRAIN ENJOY SOMETHING IN MODERATION!!!! (ThIS IS ALSO A MESSAGE FOR EVERYONE READING TO LISTEN TO GHOST THEYRE LITERALLY SO GOOD)

Me: *catches basic mistake while rereading a chapter that could’ve been fixed if I had gone over it again*
          
          Me: oh my god that’s so embarrassing. Next time, I’m proof reading so I can catch these things
          
          Also me: *doesn’t proof read and ends up perpetuating the cycle of embarrassing mistakes in my stories*
          
          Conclusion? I’m dumb 

Hi y’all! I was gonna do some writing but I live in Texas and the power’s out and I don’t have any running water so I’m not really in the mood to. Plus, it’d be good to conserve any charge I have on my phone or laptop so I can know what’s going on in the rest of the world. (Ex: watching the news and checking in on the rest of my family) sorry for the delay and to anyone in the same situation, good luck and please stay safe and warm!!!