Desaster_Angel

Heyy guys. First: thanks for the support from all of you. It’s getting better at home. I talked to my mom and she said that i can “be as genderfluid as i want” and I’ll take that. It’s better than before and she said (again) that she’ll love me no matter what. I honestly think that she thinks that i am too young to know and I don’t care. My ankle still hurts and I’m going to the doctors today. I hope i don’t have to  wait too long. Also I’m missing out on a QueerTreff i really wanted to visit but I can go to another one in two weeks. Anyways, I have my oral English exam today and i am hella nervous. But i think i’ll do good. I hope you’re okay. And how is your life going ??

Hey guys. Thanks for all the support and cheer up’s. It really helped. Also I’m going to the doctors tomorrow because my ankle still hurts. I hope you’re doing alright.

A new update: (seriously I hate these) my mom just came in and held half a speech that I shouldn’t work myself up on it. And now I feel guilty and hate myself more that ever. Isn’t life just a dream ??

Okay guys update: it’s currently 15:45 pm and my mom did not accept it. She said she wouldn’t call me Angel and that I am just confused and thought about it too much.  To aroace her only comment was that I am too young. I‘ll tell my dad as soon as he gets home. Update 20 minutes later. I won’t tell my dad. My mom just got in and wanted to „talk“ but actually she just wanted to tell me that schreibt call me angel because „you’re not sure“ and „I know you’re my daughter. I can’t see you as a „guy“ tomorrow“ so yeah. I kinda laughed and now I’m laugh-crying excuse my while I go wishing I wouldn’t exist for a week. (I‘m okay I just need time to rethink everything because now I am in the phase which I have daily „am I faking it for attention“) thanks for the support though guys

Guys I’m coming out to my parents tonight. It was a spontaneous thought but my life is shit at the moment and constantly getting deadnamed doesn’t make it better so I’ll tell them. I’m hella nervous but I already asked them if we could talk. Wish me luck

(In case I didn’t told you before) I have screen time limits. And I want to “change that” my parents won’t change it, I have tried to talk to them before. Do you have ideas ??

I think this was just not my day. It’s not even eight pm and I‘m done. I don’t want to do anything, I totally don’t want to study anymore. I can’t do anything really. I‘ve already washed my hair and put on my Pyjamas. I‘m just done. I had about three mental breakdowns which lasted about five minutes of crying and then feeling better. I had an „nearly-argument“ with my parents and got deadnamed for an amount of times I didn’t even dare to count. Sorry that I write all of that here I just don’t know what else lol. Hope you’re doing better than I do. I posted so much today, thank you all for reading this. 

Hi guys. I don’t know where this is coming from but I just need to get it off my chest. 
          There is so much hate in the world. So much ignorance and stupidity. People who hate other people because of race, expression, gender or sexuality. That’s stupid. Just because someone isn’t like one doesn’t mean they are less valid. Gay, straight,lesbian, Bi, Pan,ace,aro…. You are valid. Trans, demiboy/girl, cis, bigender, genderfluid…. You are valid. Dark skin, light skin, beige skin…. You are Valid. Therian, Furry… You are Valid. Every human is valid. No matter what sexuality, genderexpression or race they are. And I hate for some people who can’t accept that. No one expects you to support everything. But maybe try. Respect people and the things they want to be. Is it this difficult for everyone to be open to new things ?? I don’t want to point someone out. I just want that everyone  an feel safe as who they are. No more. People should be allowed to be happy and open about who they are or who they love. Everyone is valid and everyone is perfect exactly how they are.

OMG i started Heated Rivalry (because i wanted to know if it is good) and I’m not even finished with the first episode but I can TASTE the gay from here where i am sitting through my screen. Have you watched it ??

Gooddd morrnniinnggg my dudes !! I hope you’re feeling alright. I’m sitting in a very boring math lesson. So if you want rant, tell me anything. From jokes to stories and stuff. Or just get something off your chest you can’t tell anyone else. I’ll be happy with anything.