(school drama, my old friend Reese told everyone who I liked and I'm screwed and she told everyone lies about ke) I'm sooo mad. I'm crying so hard but not just bc of the whole Paxton thing but because I stuck with reese. I stuck with her, even though she was toxic to me. She lied to me, she betrayed me, she took me for granted, everyday! And I stuck with her. She is terrible. I'm done telling her Connors wrong when he calls her rude, when he tells her she's a pick me, because he's right! And I didn't have the guts to tell her tysm so now I'm sitting here paying for HER mistakes! She says "ohhh im so saddd you don't know what pain is-" And I'm like "I know I'm sorry.." But really, I wanna say the truth. I wanna say "I ACT HAPPY FOR YOU! FOR YOU! BUT YOU NEVER REPAY ME. I AM SO SO SAD, AND YOU DONT EVEN NOTICE! I HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO SO MUCH ALL MY LIFE! I AM ABOUT TO GIVE UP, AND JUST STOP TALKIGN TO PEOPLE. I REALLY DO WANT TO ISOLATENMYSELF, BUT I HATE BEING ALONE. PEOPLE LIEK YOU REESE HAVE MADE ME HATE THE THING I LOVE MOST, PEOPLE." thats how I feel. But I just bite my tongue and smile. Because I hate crying. And I really am happy, when I'm with you, my family, my real friends. Everyone else, evan, reese, gabby, I hate them all... And I hate myself.
