LarryDerp

Hey! A little update from me if you’re following. 
          
          I’ve had a change occur in my life so my writing schedule has changed drastically. My schedule for /everything/ has changed drastically. 
          
          I know when I get a chance I’ll still work on my story and update but I can’t say it’ll be soon. If you’re following along with Tendencies, take this as a (and I hate to use the word “hiatus”) break, just so I can get my stuff together and be able to write freely again. 
          
          Take care of yourselves while I’m gone, drink water, and I’ll be popping back in as often as I can (:

Hi I hope it’s okay that I promote my new book here!
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/387586508?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details&wp_uname=m1804_

Hey guys! Merry Late Christmas if you celebrate. I’m gonna try writing today and hopefully get the next chapter of Tendencies out by the weekend. Wish me luck!

@LarryDerp I miss you too (ToT) ♡♡

The chapter of Tendencies I’ve been hyping up for weeks is finally up! Go check it out if you’re up for it !

The latest chapter of Tendencies will be out later today. I literally needed just a few sentences to finish it so I’ll post it and take my time with the next chapter. 

Today is the first day I’ve even been able to look at my story, let alone work on it. 
          
          In my story, Liam was meant to have a happily ever after, despite being a “bad guy” in it. *sort of spoiler if you’re reading Tendencies* he was meant to run off into the sunset happily. 
          
          I opened my story today with the intention of getting rid of it. How could I possibly continue a story about drugs and rehab and with Liam as a fukcing drug lord with all that’s happened?
          
          I found a quote in the latest chapter, the draft of the chapter titled Always You. The one I was so excited about weeks ago. 
          
          It says something along the lines of, addiction isn’t a death sentence. It’s more like a chronic illness that one will go through for the rest of their life. 
          
          I’m not ending this story. I’m not giving up on it. Tendencies was made for a reason almost ten years ago. It was made with hope for everyone struggling with addiction, and in memory of those who have fallen victim to it. 
          
          Not saying Liam was a victim of addiction, but I’m not saying he wasn’t a user. I need this story as my way to grieve, I suppose. I can’t wait to send him off on his happily ever after so that at least in my story, he lives a long full happy life. 

Im so heartbroken. 
          
          And angry. 
          
          We’ve struggled for years with Liam’s mental health. There were good times, but mental health isn’t just a one time thing. There’s ups and there’s downs, even without the entire internet going against you. 
          
          I don’t know what happened. I only know what I see, which is that some very shady things were coming to light at the same time he made the mistake of how he acted at Niall’s show. 
          
          Now he’s not with us anymore. Whether intoxicated and accidental, or the one we’re all thinking but don’t want to believe he would be capable of. 
          
          Now everyone who was using their platforms to spread hate about him because they knew he was trending and they’d get views is posting their condolences and their prayers and all that. Like no, dude. Your “Liam’s cringe” posts and videos are still up. 
          
          Now, even if we do find out what happened and why he’s not with us anymore, it’s not gonna bring him back. 
          
          If you need me I’ll be hibernating with my headphones for the next month. Wake me up when October ends. 

@LarryDerp and that's why this one is taking soo long :p

@kloetomlinson I know, but it’s the perfectionist in me, ig 
          I go over each chapter a million times to catch the littlest mistakes and once I’m sure it’s perfect I release it. It’s hard to do when the chapters get pretty long. Not as long as YOURS though lol