LegenwaitforiitDary

Hello lovelies new chapter added in my Tvd/To book... hope to hear from you in the comments❤

LegenwaitforiitDary

I'm tired! I'm like really tired.
          I wanna sleep but I don't wanna close my eyes. I haven't spoken to my best friends in last 4 months. I want to but I just can't pickup the phone to call them. I want to go out and take a stroll but everytime I'm at the door I put my shoes back in the stand and cancel it. 
          I want to rest but the thoughts in my mind and the voices of those thoughts just won't stop! It keeps going on and on and on until my eyes can't stay open anymore. 
          I wanna wakeup happily but I have nothing to wake up for. 
          I wanna be loved and held but I can't even talk to anyone. 
          I want to comfort people... But I don't know how to. I guess that's why I'm so lonely. Because no one wants a person who wouldn't be there for them. I can't be there for people because I don't know how to. Trust me I wanna be there its like... I can't even explain whats its like, just know that I do. 
          I'm just tired! All the time! 
          I'm not doing good at my job, I'm not doing good as a daughter. I'm just useless! Everyone just have complaints with me... I can't explain to anyone how I feel because I can't cry in front of people. I couldn't even cry at my father's funeral.... I'm just pathetic! 
          I'm just tired. I wanna sleep and just sleep. 
          LET ME SLEEP.