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I'm sleepy, tired, exhausted, also drained.
          But I can't sleep.
          
          Because I have anger on my chest.
          I'm full of rage, also disappointment.
          
          But I'm powerlessness.

Even though I know that you completely no longer have feelings for me, even thinking about me. 
          A part of me hopes that you still remember the words and promises you've been told to me, because until now I'm still stuck on it.

In the end, I'm just a stupid and naive person.

I hate myself for still missing you.

Finally, I realized that you only care about yourself. 
          
          Hopefully, I'm really done with you. 
          Hopefully, no more excuses anymore.

!B A N G S A T!

I miss you.

When I remember the days that have passed with all the things I did for you, and then one day you said you didn't want to make any more effort for me.
          Besides being painful, those words were quite ticklish to remember, and left me speechless.
          
          If you think you've done a lot for me, at least I've done the same for you. 
          I've been all out for you. 
          I've done everything I can to make sure you always get the best. 
          
          However, when I needed you the most and asked for small things from you several times, you couldn't do it for me. 
          
          And now, I've decided that I've done enough. 
          I still hope you always get the best in your life.

I remembered all your words. 
          I remembered all your promises. 
          While I'm still stuck in it, you've been with someone else and unreachable.

I want to talk with you. 
          I want to share anything with you.
          But, your time is quite limited and too far away for me.