LittleGayFerret

There is stuff i'd like to write but there are a few people that know me irl on here and know my acc and i'd rather be a "cringe" person (cringe is cool tho just not when you're irls can do stuff w it) without them knowing (no this is not about nsfw content)

LittleGayFerret

I want to continue writing but im just having areally hard time actually sitting down and doing it. 

LittleGayFerret

@ TauruSataN i mean trying to write more and got many ideas but i just dk where to start and have trouble with sticking to one task at a time haha
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TauruSataN

@LittleGayFerret drug up, sit down,... And WRITTEEEEE
            
            ^^thats what I tell myself, pre Tylenol for the headache I know I'll develop staring at the screen 2 inches from my face with my glasses, finna go crosseyed istg LMAO
            
            I just use voice to text, it helps to just ramble about it and then do the editing sometime later. I find it's easier for me 
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LittleGayFerret

Pov: call me what you like came out but you literally can't listen to it since you cant install spotify and YouTube music wont let you listen to it lmao (its not funny i am about to cry)

LittleGayFerret

one of my special interests are psychology, neuropsychology, neurology and in generaly mental illnesses and disabilities. i tend to always pick one out in my brain that i fixate on. i have been thinking aboud just trying to get these things into my books so i keep writing but especially when the big fixation on one thing lessens (?) I am araid that, again, i wont inish it. i actually have a really nice book that hasn't really to do with any of these in my drats. its uninished, but well.

LittleGayFerret

I FINALLY GOT MY 25 FOLLOWERS HOORAY
          
          btw i have so many ideas and books i started writing in my drafts and i really want to post but writing endings (especially the last few chapters and from these especially the last sentences) is always really hard for me and in general i have been struggling a lot and yea-
          Sorry lmao
          If you all have any wishes for books or chapters in a book let me know!
          Love you all<3

LittleGayFerret

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VENT KINDA
          God no I don't wanna be 11 again. I don't wanna stay up late again to talk people out of suicide while bawling my eyes out. Yes I can listen to people and I love listening to them but I just don't have the strength to.. god. I was 11. I should not have been doing that. And still I should not be doing this now. I was BEGGING for her to keep texting me, for her to don't do anything stupid. After she stopped answering I had no Idea If I actually stopped her or If I fucking lost her. Things like that are terrifiyng. I was terrified. I am relieved now that they are fine, but what If this happens again? I can't handle this anymore. Talking people out of suicide can literally be traumatizing even for adults. Now imagine me, a teenager or even 11 year old me having to do this. I had to do this regularly while I was a DAMN KID. And now I had to do this once again and I am still shaken up, even tho I know she is fine now. I struggle so much already and this is too much. I can't let down my friends, but I can't  handle these extreme situations.