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UPDATE #1
Tell me if in wrong...the moment you are at your best is the moment the world wants to test you, it wants to throw challenges at you and you just have to figure it out and make your way through all the pain and hurt.
I would also like to acknowledge tht I lost my eight month cut free streak 2 weeks ago because I felt like i wasnt enough for the people around me and tht i didnt deserve shit in life.
I wanted to be able to post it for an awareness type thing because sometimes you lose yourself and I had a moment of lose and weakness.
I also want to get off my chest how the thing tht is making me my most happy is also why nobody wants to talk to me like its not your business and if you were really a day one you would look past the fact that they are my happiest and still be friends with me.
I have been going through alot and I mean I feel like i have nobody I feel like I am just going through hell on earth but when im with my "happiness" i feel ok, i feel safe and i have someone to talk to and i am trying my best for the people around me, i am trying to be ok, i am trying to be sane...