Kate

In the time that I've been gone, I've screamed, I've cried, I've adopted another cat while everyone is screaming "Have another baby!"...
          
          Have you left the house and seen the troubled world? Definitely not bringing a third human into this shit hole. Lol. Went back to pizza hut, because I have no profitable skills, and I became an insomniac again. But, I quit smoking cigarettes. So that's the good news. 
          
          Stay kind, stay humble, and be safe. 

I really don't care about much, except that buying a house has been a pain in the ass! ...I close on it Friday morning, at 9 am, sharp. I don't plan on moving for a while, either. It's a process, and we fought like cats and dogs, just out of nerves. Ugh. Blood sweat and tears! #millenial

I've taken an interest in Anaïs Nin... But can't afford any of her books to read, lol. Ah, such is life. Bought my best friend one of her books for her birthday this month though. 

Goodbye mom. Until we meet again. Oct 7, 1960- Nov 26, 2021. 

I've started a book, just for random writing that passes through my head. Why? Because I'd like to sleep at night!!! Ideas never turn off. And yes, I'm bisexual. I came to terms with it last April. I'm not ashamed, but I do know if I told my mother she'd disown me. I can't do that right now, she has custody of my daughter, sooo... Yeah.

Siiiiiiiigh. I just don't want to exist anymore. Everything seems to be going wrong, and my depression is at an all time low. I'm irritable, moody, and just can't seem to find anything to smile about. I've got one person to talk to, and she's busy. Maybe I'll drown myself in the shower. I'm just done. ‍♀️

So, I came out in April. My husband was thrilled, and now because I work at a bar, I'm a cheating slut? I've never been more faithful, so there's that. Idk where he gets his insecurity from, I'm really not that great looking. #PrideMonth #Bi #Ugh #MyBrainHurtsALot

"Wake up, Maggie! I think I got something to say to you..." 
          
          This is my new project. It's the only line I've got so far. I'm currently brainstorming how it unfolds, even though I've listened to the song a zillion times since June.

It has to get worse before it gets better. Just remember that. All things must come to pass. We're going to see a lot worse things this year than last, I fear. No, I don't know this for sure! Lol. It's just... A feeling I have. I would like to close my eyes and wake up to something peaceful, but... No, just more protests, riots, and fights. Ugh.

I'm overly inspired, but I don't have enough space on my phone to start a new story... Sad. Maybe I'll pick up a tablet in a couple of days. I'm feeling extra creative. Grossly romantically creative.