What I want to be:
u·nique
yo͞oˈnēk/
adjective
1.
being the only one of its kind; unlike anything else.

What I long for:
in·di·vid·u·al·i·ty
ˌindəˌvijo͞oˈalədē/
noun
1.
the quality or character of a particular person or thing that distinguishes them from others of the same kind, especially when strongly marked.

What I have:
fear
ˈfir/
noun
1.
an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.

What I am:
cow·ard
ˈkou(ə)rd/
noun
1.
a person who lacks the courage to do or endure dangerous or unpleasant things.

My dream: 
To feel more alive than I've ever felt before in my entire life. 

My name is not Madeline, I was not born a kensley. I want to be anything but myself. Madeline is just a pen name, but it's a made up person I want to be.