MagicMika539

I just realised that the year is almost over again.
          	
          	Like it feels like yesterday I woke up to 30°C and it’s just winter now and cold and dark and almost 2026

MagicMika539

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That feeling when you only have to go to school for the first two lessons >> 
          But then you also have to stay for the fifth period<<<< 
          But then you cant just leave because even tho the sixth period is like cancelled, you also have to stay for lunch break because your teachers need to discuss something with your whole fucking grade

MagicMika539

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I really hate how all the online self help stuff is “reach out to a trusted adult like your parents or a teacher“ like- no. I don’t want to bother my parents with my shit and they would either worry too much or make fun of me (yeah my mom and dad are very different from each other) and i will never talk to my teachers about that. I just don’t feel like they would take it serious and im so scared of them thinking that I‘m only faking my feelings for the attention. Because honestly, listening to all the shit that happened to friends of mine, i feel like all of my problems are luxury-problems. Not important shit, because no i never got hit by my father, no i never hurt myself, no I‘m not schizophrenic. I‘m just feeling empty and worthless. 
          And I realise that in a few years I’ll look back and say, “damn i didn‘t even have real struggles back then.“ 
          But right now life just sucks and i hate it

Readingyayyyyyy

@MagicMika539 i'm so happy that you're getting better, and even if you fall a bit, its still progress <3 also you are amazing and please stay <33
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MagicMika539

@Readingyayyyyyy honestly it already means so much to me to have someone say “that’s valid” cuz like- I feel like it’s not. But right now I detached from some friends and I’m feeling so much better honestly. Exam phase is over (for now) and I don’t have as much stress. Though I honestly feel like jumping from a very high roof is still very attractive, I don’t want to do it as much these days. I feel like I’m actually getting better ngl, but like, i also know I will hate myself again tonight lol. 
            But thanks for even replying, it means a lot. I hope you are alright. <3
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Readingyayyyyyy

@MagicMika539 that's honestly so valid, sometimes the 'reaching out' is like ummm hell nah I won't be doing that. And please never feel like your problems are less important than other people. No matter the size its still a struggle. Please don't suffer it alone, i'm also kind of late lol but talk to me <3 i'll listen and i promise i won't judge
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