Midnight Tide Collective

ILYSM!

So, I started reading the fanfic that everyone is screaming about. Heatwaves. Ngl, I've been pushing this back bc idk if I should read it or not, but everyone seemed super excited about it, so I wanted to give it a shot. I just finished Chapter 1 and it's pretty good. Gonna keep reading some more later.

I want to jump out a window rn :)
          
          I'm having this crush on a friend of mine and I've never seen her face, but she's just so beautiful and cute and kind and dhusvejsmsvs BUT SHE'S STRAIGHT. What the hell is wrong with me ;-; Some one in a Discord server were saying its gonna go away and I am here thinking, "Yeah, no. We talk every day, that's not gonna happen." Curse my gay heart! (T~T)

So, yesterday I was watching this Hentai, and I know its weird that I'm talking about this, but it was so weird! So, I was watching a video that had CDawgVA and they were talking about this hentai game called Euphoria that also got an anime. DO NOT WATCH IT!!! DO NOT PLAY IT!!!
          
          //Trigger Warning//
          
          Holy mother of god, it was a disturbing thing that I just couldn't stop watching. I binged watched the whole series I'm pretty sure. This Hentai had a very intriguing plot and story. There were things that I just couldn't watch and had to skip or just look away.  There's rape and a fucking large amount of it. And also a bunch of other nasty shit that I don't even want to talk about. I wanted to cleanse my eyes at the end of it.
          The ending though! It was so fucking confusing. I don't fucking know anymore. Someone died (with a loud fucking noise that I was in shock for a solid minute)and then she's the bad guy and I just didn't understand what the fuck was going on. And then it ended in a happy ending with one of the female characters. Jesus fucking Christ, this hentai HAD LAYERS. 
          I'm actually tempted to watch the playthrough of the GAME. I've gone down a rabbit hole and I can't come out. I need to know what happened to each character. I have to know the story lines. 
          Jesus, I sounds like  crazy person.

I feel so great right now. I don't usually feel like this. Most of the time I feel shitty, but this is amazing. I feel proud and accomplished for once! Today just made me want to prove myself more as well as my team captain. To show him my hard work will pay off.

My mom was talking earlier to my aunt from my biological dad's side of the family and she told me that she told her that I wasn't dating anyone and wanted to travel the world. I had nothing wrong with that until she said, "I can't tell her the truth of ... you know." And I just agreed.
          
          Like woman, just because I dated a female doesn't mean I'm Lesbian! I'm bi! And I've told her more than 2 times before! Sometimes I wish I could just leave already.

Sometimes I hate things that my dad does and I just want to leave for college already. Literally today he gave me a lecture on how to try less hard for my dance class. For context, I take dance and I hurt my back yesterday. My mom told him as I figured she would. But instead of going, "Hey honey, how's your back? Do you feel better?" He just goes on a lecture on how I should try less. And this is not the first time. One time I had a mental breakdown because of all the stress I had, and my my dad, instead of comforting me, just lectures me kn how my problems aren't that big. If they really weren't you should help my siblings with their homework. YOU do the chores. YOU help with dinner. He literally does nothing of this and it was all piled up on me. I just don't get it

So, like, I just woke up. And I had the most wonderful, but also strangest thing ever. So I had a dream related to Hazbin Hotel (if you have never heard of it you should give it a look at it because it's great! Created by Vivziepop) Anyways, it was basically me and Alastor trying to find Husk and I don't remember why? All I remember was that it was a quest to find people is they can help me. Husk was a pain in the ass to look for. We went to different places like hotels and things like that. And Alastor has a phone, which was weird as he doesn't like new tech and tried to find if anyone knew of him in his contacts on Facebook. It was just so weird
          
          Idk, sorry for the long text. But I had to write it down somewhere before I forget.

So, I'm not dead if anyone thought I was.
          
          Anyways, an author named @ShadowisLittle posted a message about a petition. The oldest member from Stray Kids, Kim Woojin, left and some believe its weird that he did leave. And this petition is like to say that Woojin shouldn't be forced. 
          
          Ya'll don't need to sign, but it would mean a lot if ya'll did. 
          
          Have a great day.

So, I'm gonna take my time and say that I FREAKING love forevermoonchild's books. Her books are simply amazing, mind boggling, sad, beautiful, and it's just-just wow! I've read so many of her stories and all of them are different and full of emotional rollercoasters. To wtf to crying your eyes out, this author can do it. I'm giving her a shout out because she deserves it. Y'all should go and read them because they are definitely worth the time to.