Mille-Feuilles

@Mille-Feuilles no problem at all,you may think youre not loved but some people have it hard to show affection and love or you havent met the people who'll love you unconditionally yet,thats not the matter anyway who cares,whats important is to fight for yourself and fall in love with life and yourself again cause at the end of the day we all have ourselves and we are alone at night with our own minds and selves so take care and do whats best for you,lots of love

@R_aslazito  Thank you for your concern and kind words, I'm not very beloved but I've met up with friends and stayed for them for a few days, I am trying to be a little better, but I am still surviving and far from joy or happiness or peace... Sending you much love for taking the time to respond 

@Mille-Feuilles I’m happy to know that you’re feeling better and that you’re noticing progress in your mental health, small steps make all the difference ❤️ Focus on the things that do you good. Like you said, your characters are what motivate you. The opinions of fans who don’t even know you and who you don’t even relate to don’t matter

@GalMegui  Regarding the fandom, I was mainly depressed about things in my life. But yes, some aspects make it so much worse. I've logged off from twitter and seeing and interacting with all that toxicity. My political page is paradoxically more healthy for me than Aslaz fandom stuff. And I am also in a way, not in peace, but right with myself and my beliefs. About a lot of things. Being this broken and alone but still not giving up on rationality or values reinforces what I believe in. My opinions and thoughts on the misogynistic and rich-bootlicking aspects of some fics (dark romance is being heavily criticised in France, to the point it's reached parlement legislation right now, mainly thanks to activists on twitter) were always right, even if I was alone against a tide. My beliefs regarding some other things are right too, I don't want to mention it here but I know it would get me a fire of hate in the Rojbin fandom, but at the end of the day, I don't care. My fictional characters are who I love and have passion for, they exist under my pen, and my fidelity to my values are more important than people pleasing in a fandom that's always been toxic, cold and unwelcoming, it's just not a place to make friends and very hostile. But that's okay, I realise with all of your message that my writing touches people and creates a little bonding and community here on Wattpad, and that's maybe all I need. 
            
            Thank you 

@GalMegui  I'm sorry about your mental health and hope my words haven't triggered you or worried you more. I stayed over at some militant friends for the weekend in Belleville, and let's say the soul crushing urge to end my life passed for a while. I've gotten a surge of motivation to at least, have a stable routine of meals and physical activity, which might seem simple but with how depressed I am it's already progress. It's also given me some of my confidence back, some of these girls profoundly admire me, I've been a figure of authority, leading barricades and AGs in the context we've been friends, there's a respect and kindness they have in me which really made me realise how worthy my life experiences have been even if it's dark right now.
            
            It's not that I think of psychology as a shame, but I believe the institution is toxic (the medical field in general) and more precisely that it's unable to fix me because I am conscious that my mental  health issues don't stem from something wrong in me, but rather from something wrong with our world and societies. And I think the rates of depressed and mentally affected people in my generation only demonstrates that. I don't need therapy or medecine, I need for the things that make me so broken in this world to change and be gone. And that's why, political combat and social issues, militantism is my only therapy. 
            
            

@FTMN49 The political situation in Rojava and my personal life really took a toll on me. I have lots of friends and comrades there, I fell into a loop of depression for a week straight and only managed to protest and organise outside of work :(
            
            I am writing though, working on the 3rd chapter of Birlikte Yakalim that I hope to post by this weekend ❤️

@ Mille-Feuilles 
            ​Thank you so much for the thoughtful reply! Honestly, I love where your head is at. I totally respect your take on the psychiatric institution—it actually adds a much deeper and more realistic layer to the story than just a typical 'doctor-patient' romance.
            ​The 20th-century setting and the focus on anti-colonialism/Fanon is brilliant! Turning Asi into a spy and Alaz into a resistance doctor is such a genius twist. It fixes that power dynamic issue perfectly and makes it feel like a high-stakes 'enemies to lovers' vibe.
            ​I’m so excited about this direction! Please take your time with it. I’d love to see how Asi’s mission clashes with her feelings for Alaz and his cause. Can't wait to see what you come up with! ❤️

@nssssssza  hello, don't apologise or hesitate, I have said to be open to requests and it's always pleasant to get feedback on my writing, so thank you so much ❤️
            
            Coming to your request, before even getting to Aslaz, the topic of psychology and therapy is a bit touchy for me because I am extremely critical of the institution and partly don't believe in it. 
            
            Now as you've pointed, there's also a relationship of hierarchy that implies a form of power the man would have over the woman in this trope that I'm not really keen on.
            
            If I give it a thought, maybe it could be something historical, set in the 20th century. It could be critical of that stage in psychiatric studies where incarceration in mental health facilities was seen as the defacto "treatment" and show Fanon and many's work on being critical of this and bring on more progressive reinsertion prodcedures. Asi could also be sick, while simultaneously  being there for an ulterior motive, like maybe she's a spy, in the facility for some other reason. Again, Fanon comes to my mind, maybe we could include a layer of anticolonialism. Alaz would not be a simple doctor but working with resistance groups, Asi is the daughter of a bureaucrat or officer, sent as a spy, this also reverse the hierarchical power dynamic. In the end, she ends up realising what's at sake and abandoning  her goal, while she falls for Alaz too ? The idea would need more work, but that's what comes to my mind.

@Mille-Feuilles I love you very much and appreciate your effort and hard work. I swear I appreciate it because I know it's not easy to write, so you are very dear to me. May you always be well, full of passion and light. Thank you for your time and your reply❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@FTMN49 I love that story, it's way too close to my heart, which is maybe why I want to distance it a bit. I appreciate your support, you're not at all burdening me, this comment is even very motivating, I know that it does deserve an ending. Maybe when I'm done with Kalp Bagi, I can write more of it... let's see. I have a few ideas for short stories, maybe I'll write them too.

@Mille-Feuilles I don't want to force you to do something you won't like, but I think you're mistaken. Everything about Aslaz is loved by many; you've simply promoted the story. The secret lies within you because you're a fantastic writer, not a comic book writer. You truly excel at your stories, and that's a huge and important thing for me. It's been seen by 7,000 people; it's visible. I really like you and don't want to burden or force you, but you've made a great start. The story needs to be finished, not left hanging. That's not like you. I swear I'm eager to know about their first secret encounter that Aslaz is hiding, and I'm excited about the world of resistance because it's a popular and important thing for me. Just believe in yourself and keep going; we're with you

@ xjdhgdrhhc  Are you speaking of Kalp Bağı ? You can translate in your browser by copy pasting the link from wattpad (the app) and translating the whole web page. If you're asking for copyrights in order to download and translate it through a more advanced app & share it, yes you can do it as long as I'm credited ofcourse :)

Forget the annoying fandom Don’t worry about the fandom at all, I honestly love everything you write. Whatever characters or dynamics you choose, I’ll always be here reading! I’ll read it all :) Don’t be surprised if I keep commenting every time on your stories because I read them over and over and btw sorry for replying so late…

@ aslazloverxx  Hii thank you so much for your love, I think KB will have around 25 chapters, I've got a bit to write yet, taking my time with their growth as a family :) 
            Idk if I'll write an Aslaz story after that, I have very little one-shots ideas, idk if I'll write them out. I am thankful to all my readers here and I love Aslaz, but I feel like I don't write the kind of stuff this fandom is into, at least for the anglophond side. I'd love to be fluent enough in turkish to write, but unfortunately I'm not that good.