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Well sorry for you guys.. nowadays I didn't update for my book cause... I don't have data— hiks.. Anyways plus I'm not in the mood now.. like today My family had a big fight especially my mom and dad. My mom who is prevent me from dad who wanted to hit me cause he thinks that I push my brother but the truth is I didn't but yeah he hate me so much that he won't care a shit about me. He hit me.. and thinks that my phone is more important so he take my phone. My mom take it from him and yell at him to stop. He hit my mom.. and my mom hit him. My mom says that he didn't know how to take care of children. How stress I am and what have I been do for nowadays. She protect me.. the time they hit each other.. I was crying.. as loud as I can.. cause I can't stop it. Its my fault.. my sister who didn't know what to do she only can look at me. Im crying.. like there's no the end of it. While I'm crying, let everything that was inside my heart.. which I have been hold for such a long time.. I hit myself... Telling myself in my mind that I was a mistake. I should just die. I'm nothing. Nobody cares about me. Nobody will like me to be born. No one love me. But my name starts with "love" but I don't receive any Love from people around me. I deserve hate. I don't deserve this world. I don't deserve to be alive. Well...the old me.. I forgot about it.. who the real me.. what's up with me.. what is happening with me.. I changed. A cheerful, funny and smiley girl into a broken, hurt and wearing mask girl which hide my sadness. I hate this okay? Why don't he believe me? I told him the truth. Like I said I didn't I just said "no" to my brother with a deep voice and he started to cry. My dad look at me, mad. He then walk to me and slap me.. and took my phone. At the same time my mom.. yeah you know what happens. I really hate it. I'm a burden here!