Miranda~chan

I was going to do some chapter stuff today but apparently, my building management decided to do some very loud construction work. 
          So because it's so loud that means I can't use my speech-to-text program (speechnotes.co) so that means I can't really do it because Im not up for dealing with my own bad grammar and spelling today, along with the fact that I normally take forever to write something even with speech notes without it my writing & stuff takes like a 10 times longer. 
          -_- uuugg
          It seems that every time I get inspiration to write or just feel like it I'm either away from my computer so I can't, or I have a personal crisis that ends up taking me out of the mood immediately or some other external factor that just makes it so I can't do what I want. 
          
          If these stupid "preventative factors" would go away then I'd probably get at least 1 chapter out a month which would be a lot better updating schedule then what I have which seems to be one chapter every 6 months not including filler chapters and author notes. 
          If I were able to do 1 chapter a month I would be amazed at myself! but even with that, I would be I would still prefer to do like maybe 1-2 chapters a week. 
          but with the way things keep happening 1-2 chapters a week would be impossible unless they were all filler/ short scenarios/headcanons & those chapters would all be short. 
          I mean I know the chapters I've already done aren't very long but I like to have at least 1000 words per chapter, & with f/s-s/h-c type chapters 1000 words per chapter wouldn't be reasonable unless you make the chapter a bit ridiculous! & that's not something I want to do! I'd rather things stay the way they are than force myself to release chapters that I think my readengrs won't like as much.
          I know I don't have much of anything in the works right now and the way of a new chapter...But  I REALLY HOPE! to start something that can be considered an actual chapter by my standards within the next few days -week and get it out!! <3

friday, September 14. 2018.
          my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer.
          it spread from his lunge to his pancreas and liver. treatment is not an option as it would just prolong his suffering.
          he's been given 2 weeks to live.
          but I recently found out that that the worst case scenario but if the doctors are right he should pass away on the 28th of September.
          
          I know I've been on break for mental health reasons and am in general slow to release new chapters and at this point im not adding any more months to my break.
          a new chapter comes out when it comes out and I honestly don't know when that is anymore.
          
          it should also be taken into consideration that I am suicidal and pronto self-harm,  I've tried to kill my self twice so far. I have gotten my ass in gear and am seeking medical treatment.
          BUT I don't have anyone that would care enough to update on hear if I did kill my self.
          even if I left a directive (and premade note to post) in my will for a specific person to do so I highly doubt that they would. thou I could be wrong.

im not doing any onepiece stuff I still consider my self on break for writing stories.
          I've decided not to apply it when I need/want to write my ideas down.
          
          as of recently, I've been into fantasy world building and map making video s on youtube, and of course, I started to have ideas for my own world.
          
          im going wright thous ideas down in a book on here. the book might eventually include images maps and things that match my ideas. idk if I'll end up drawing any of it my self though. if I do it might get drawn using ms paint so it probably won't look that great.
          I haven't started writing anything yet I need to scroll da googles for a cover page and any extra images I might want for references or whatever else I end up need them for.
          
          ~~~ anyway Ima get to work on this now~~~ by later

Hey, guys, I'm still on break but I just had this little idea that I wanted to write down before I forgot what it was, so I'm putting it here before I forget what it is and all the little parts to it. 
          Some of the ideas may carry into the comment section I just don't want to add it into the book until I have more of a storyline and dialect/interactions between the characters.
          I know that puts me up slightly more of a risk for somebody taking my ideas but for this particular instance, I don't really care so go ahead. Like I said these are just ideas. 
          The story would take place on an island/or/continent _themed around ancient Greek and Egyptian time periods and styles (like a combination of dressrosa and alabasta)_ 
          
          In the Greek Empire the king and queen (I know wrong Royal titles but whatever) are unable to have a child their whole entire life >  and now they're considered of an age in which they're too old to reproduce. >like 50/60 years old< 
          
          So the king >Rocinante/Corazon< and his wife the queen >Robin< 
          
          (I don't actually ship these two I just want to feel these rolls with Canon one piece characters and I don't know who else he could be with other than bellmere but that particular character doesn't work for me. But then again neither does Robin really). 
          
          Argue with their Council of wise men or whatever you want to call them to allow them to adopt a "child" into the family to be the next heir to the throne. A child specifically from peasantry or if you prefer the Commonwealth.
          
          That "child" ends up being law and he's not really a child per say. More accurately a teenager 13 or 14 years old.

hello all.
          
          thing aren't that great right now... they're actually pretty bad!
          
          ...
          
          I really don't know how to say this/word this/ don't want to talk about this but I feel in a way coupled to say something about why things aren't great!.
          
          my cat beboo passed away today (June 11 Monday 2018) 
          I found her in one of her favorite sleeping spots ...and that's about it without  going into detail .
          
          she didn't show any signs of being sick and she was about 5 - 7 years old so I don't know what caused it and I don't have the money to have tests done on her body to find out...hell I don't even know if I can afford to get her cremated.
          it was pretty late in the day when I learned she passed so none of the animal hospitals were closed so i cant take beboo in untell morning to see what I can do about getting her cremated. which is what I am going to do.
          
          I just got through dealing with the stress and after-stress of moving and it took me a lot of time to do that.
          
          I know I said it would be three months minimum before I started working on my next chapter but for me dealing with my cat passing away has tossed me into a pit of depression!
          I deal with depression worse then I deal with stress... sooo...
          I might need 6 months minimum instead and it like I always say even that not a guarantee.
          
          I am very close with my cats there like my children to me im more attached to them then I am to most of my human family.
          so the loss of my cat is hitting me pretty hard  ...
          ...
          I don't know what else to say about this or anything else going on in my life. I guess I'll add this to changing current as an authors note chapter to let others know it might be longer than expected for a story chapter to be in the works.
          I wish for the healthiness happiness and safety for every cat in the world and every other and in every dimension of ever universe !!!
          
          monday, June 11, 2018
          rest in peace beboo

Update on my last conversations post. 
          
          I'm all moved into my new place have been for a little over a month or 2 now I think. 
          
          I'm still destressing from all of the negative things that happened during the move.
          Maybe I'll try and use some of those negative emotions for one piece fanfiction or new chapter... But I highly doubt it. 
          
          (0h another thing I'm distressing about is my high-school stalker. My stalker from back when I was in high school manage to find me on Facebook and now I have to be careful of what I post do and say on social medias *YouTube*  *Tumblr*  * facebook* *wattpad* and IDK what else` 
          _ yes I have Tumblr but I'm keeping it private from friends and family as it is the place where I go where I can vent myself without being forced to correct myself so I won't be posting any links to it on wattpad because that would give friends and family access to it_ 
          
          Like I said I have to be careful about what I post so I've been reorganizing around that trying to make sure she hasn't figured out any of my online socials so that's another reason why I haven't been posting much I figured if I backed off for a while she have less chance of finding me") 
          
          Anyway, that's enough of that for now all.
          I'm working on a short author note type chapter you can read more about the whole situation there! the chapter is also for some of the people who don't read these conversation posts and have been wondering where my new chapters are. 
          The authors note chapter one also includes some random anime facts and headcanon I guess... I don't really know yet I haven't gotten too far it's writing it yet. I'm only like 3 sentences into writing it.

just to confirm something I posted months ago.
           yes, I am moving. 
          ( actually in the middle of moving - tomorrow is moving day)
          no, I haven't been working on writing my books and chapters at all in the past 3 -4 months.
          yes, I will continue writing my books and chapters I just don't know when.
          
          I've been dealing with a lot of stress most of it caused by my current building management and their lack of to communicate, and my wifi crashing whenever I decide to wright.
           
           the wifi only seems to do that when I'm on wattpad, but I recently got an 
           external wifi connector that I have yet to extensively try out on wattpad and so far for none-wattpad-use the external wifi connector has been working really well.
          
          so that combined with the move hopefully thing will lighten up and ill get some inspiration.  sometime after the move, (like a week or 2) I might try to get something posted though it might be a bit fillerish like (headcanons) (cute/sexy pictures of the guys from onepiece) (things I've found on tumbler/facebook that make me think of onepiece) I make no guarantee that something will be posted that soon!. 
          
          but meanwhile, if anyone is interested I've been doing some youtube stuff and documenting the move and some other stuff as well. I talk about anime and other things, so if  anyone wants to check that out
          https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxTKGFq1xpmEVmbE-vVVBiQ?view_as=subscriber
          
          <2 ttyl <3

my internet wifi has been crapping out again... ever time it is working I`m cleaning something, the reason I'm cleaning _ me and my dad might be moving in the next 3 months so if I don't clean it will make packing harder.
          
          I really REALLY just want to work on my books but the things I have going on in my life right now are quit disgruntling and have made it very hard for inspiration to come to me.
          I hope things get better for me soon and that I am able to write something for now of my books soon! 
          untell then I wish everyone else luck with there books - stories and lives

soo I've been sick for almost the past week (5 days),(i am better now) almost went to the hospital because of how bad it was getting but I decided to try a bit of self-medicating first. 
          I didn't google a damn thing about it (untell after I was better) and I'm not a dr or healer or anything like that but what I did worked well enough that I ended up laughing at my self and wishing I self-medicated sooner. 
          ginger ale-soda, gingerbread, Advil, apples, bread, chicken noodle soup.  were my meditations of choice. (ginger is good for stomach issues there for ginger ale-soda is magic). 
          I basically slept for 2days. I've been ''healthy'' for about 3 days now but I'm still drinking lots of ginger ale as a sort of precaution.
           my mind is all over the place but I hope to be working on my books again soon now that I'm better

Last night I had this crazy idea about kaido I know the idea is complete bullshit and there's no way in hell it's ever going to be Canon but I found it mildly amusing.
          
          What if the reason kaido's considered unkillable/immortal is that he used to be one of the gorosei.
           but I don't see that being the case because kaido's clearly not human and the government in the world of onepiece is clearly against non-human authority, That and his character designed doesn't seem like he would have ever been one. It be cool if he was one in the past though!.