You ever lose yourself because you loved somebody so much and so deeply even while knowing they didn't love you anymore?... yea it ruins you. It dredges up a whole new plethora of insecurities and trust issues. It makes you wary of ever letting somebody else in. To the point where you become content with the possibility of spending the rest of your life alone because you know if you do, at least you'll never have to feel that type of hurt again...

I'm 25 now
I still love music.
But I don't have the same passion for reading or writing anymore and I'm trying so hard to get that back because it was always one of the only things I enjoyed about myself. The way I could lose myself in a book or come up with a random story out of nowhere. And now I can barely pick up a book or write down a sentence.. it sucks losing yourself because of someone that has shown you over and over that they don't care about you and repeatedly hurt you over and over until you just become numb to it.

I'm only 25...