Moon

You ever watch people who act crazier than you have more skills, more support, more acceptance than you? Don't get me wrong, they all help me through the hard times but I always wish I could be like them, not insignificant and somewhat important.
          
          I don't want to grow to their age and still just be on my bed doing nothing, I try to do things but I give up so easily. I can't tell if it's cause of me or my mom just laughing at all I do.
          
          I thank the lord for my dad and uncle, no matter what my grandma or mom says to me they always support me through everything and just say to do what you want. 
          
          My mom said her mom (my grandma) used to belittle her kids by commenting on their likes, appearance, etc. And she keeps screaming at her, even though my grandma is already dealing with her son-of-a-bitch boyfriend (grandma and grandpa didn't get married) I don't understand why she says the annoying things about her grandma, when she's doing it to me?
          
          I wanna say it but she never wants to loose in a fight and when she says I can talk to her it just makes me more distant. Is this something wrong? She doesn't support me with anyone I watch or what I do.
          
          She only likes it when I do stuff for her or play guitar, not practicing. I feel like I was just born to serve her, I did some stuff that made her and me disappointed but that was a year ago. What happened to your "Forgive and forget"? 
          
          I want one day when she can just like me for all I do, but I doubt she'll stop calling Wilbur, Tommy, Karl, Tubbo, etc, losers. Every. Single. Time. I watch them and she sees it just hurts me when she screams when I watch them or laughs. She thinks it's playful and I enjoy her just making me reconsider who I like.

I watched the fucking video of dream going back into the mask and the description had "I'll be working on my face" what's that mean? 
          
          Is he getting surgery to look different?
          
          Also, his face had already been recorded, people have his face in their camera rolls, fanfics, saved photos. The fact they do is already good enough for him to know there's still a large amount of people who like how he looks, and I'm apart of those people.
          
          Even one of my friends who doesn't even watch him, know that he doesn't look ugly and that everyone is just focusing on one detail about how he looked malnourished and not knowing how to do angles. It's so annoying how after years and years of suffering through every single detail about humans, people still find a new thing to hate.
          
          Today, I had seen so many things about transphobia, homophobia, etc. I know its weird for young ones to know about this, but it's become apart of humanity already. 
          
          I don't know if it's good for kids to learn at a young age about the LGBTQIA+ Community but it still exists around them and if they don't know what it is, they might grow up to not support it since they're confused of it. 
          
          I just wish people can just live normally without looking at flaws or making ones. But at the state of everything. 
          
          I'm loosing hope this will happen.

Happy Birthday, King.
          
          We all miss you very much.

Hi! Just a little something, I matured early (like 9) and I knew too much at a young age, I'm disappointed in myself but it happened so I have to just live with it now. Did you ever like just watch p0rn at a young age? (Talking to no one and just a friend who doesn't even use wattpad) cause I did and I can't tell if I regret it or not...it's scarred me but I'm still watching it. Am I the weird one for watching p0rn at a young age? I need to know if there's more people out there like me.