@Novaelistah77
Okay, I've unpublished 'New Meaning of Nothing'. Lately, I realize something... I struggle with writing. I used AI to help me create a solid narrative. My story looked solid and polished... But here's the thing. It's soulless. Sure I made some edits but its crappy. Then nawalan ako gana. hahaha. I will revise some parts again, wholly changing the plot. Sana mabalik ko yung drive ko sa pagsusulat.
I find solace in melancholy.
It makes me feel that I'm living this very moment. That it's real.
The beauty of suffering is that you see the truth when you're in pain.
You appreciate the things you usually overlooked.
You finally accept some of the things you can and can't change.
You then get to love everyone, even yourself.
This is a reminder, no matter how tough life is, there's someone who secretly loves you, and who's in need of loving.
It's ok not to be ok. And when you're down, just remember the only way is up.
Ehem ehem gumalaw na ang baso. HAHAHA. I feel motivated to write. With a lil help to y'know just to fight my writer's block. And i'm excited.
The New Meaning of Nothing will head on the thrilling direction. Now info overload na ako hahaha. Finally... makakasulat na din ulit ako. Sorry sa mahaba habang hiatus.
Gusto ko na matapos to. Then I'll write my other two novels here. Nawiwili ako sa Villain isekai thingy, so I wrote a draft about it. I titled it The Villain's Demise. Then my serious kind of drama na mas mahirap isulat kasi heavy emotion dapat doon eh but I want to write it slowly. Oats I Sow. Soon, I'll post the sneak peeks at my short stories compilation. For now, I'll focus on this recent one.
Hi guys. I finally got a fb account for this. We can connect with each other and you can ask me questions regarding my stories.
@Novaelistah77 Yowww I didn't know this, hindi nagnotif sakin tong post for some reason T^T I can add you na there finally! See ya!
Heya! Sorry for retracting to my cave for such a long time once again lol. Sucks that we can't do dms anymore, but hi, Novae! How have you been?
@Novaelistah77 Nope, I will fret, I've decided. Trip ko maging close minded today, chos, HAHAHAHAH. Anyway, yeah, I think you're right. Maybe this is a sign that I should focus more on completing at least a novel, if not a short story, or a series of one. Grabe, I need to get back to writing kasi for sure kumalawang na me. I started getting into art lately and making my own art, and it was therapeutic, satisfying even. I need to change things up nga lang para mabalanse ko na lahat ng passions ko as well as priorities. I guess I'm being too hard on myself, but I feel like I need to be just that so I can get done the things I want done. Or get the things I want started, started. I'm rambling again XD but yeah
@napagpagurang_p I think wala na talaga. Pero maybe its for the better. Para mas makafocus tayo sa goal. Yun ay ang makatapos at mapublish ang novel natin. Besides there are tons of ways for communication. So don’t fret my friend.
@napagpagurang_p Same, busy and chaotic but fine, but also stressful sometimes? Idk lol but I'm real glad you seem to be doing okay. I agree with building a new gate, caves can be unsafe to live in XD jk Serious ba na okay pa DM feature on your end? Sakin kasi wala na ToT aaa ang natitira na lang sa aking chatmates ay si wattpad :> one way communication lang beh, submissive lang ako tas sya puro updates chos HAHAHAH
There’s nothing striking about me actually.
That’s why i chose to blend in with the crowd.
Until i disappear.
Until i be at peace.
Until i be one with the nature and universe.
Alas! My laptop has officially taken a sh*t. It's dead along with the chapters (which btw i tried to squeeze out from my booby brain). Now my saved files are gone. The progress i made just poof.
Gone.
So i feel peachy. So peachy that i want to gouge my brains out but i prefer not to since i still have these novels to finish.
Anyways, that's life. I guess I'll go primitive in writing. Its me and my smartphone.
Welp...
@Novaelistah77 on the good note, i think the angels blessed me. I sorta unconsciously saved my half baked progress of my story on my gdrive. Thank GOD. And yes... like you, im also not fond on writing online using g docs and stuffs. Natawa ako sa depinisyon mo sa primitive writing. And your right. Pero i did that pen paper crap. Time consuming tho auto save na sa papel but if i plan to transfer it to online, i have to type word for word. Apparently, im a lazy person. Any inconvenience is a no no. Anyways, i hope my phone would hold up to. Mukhang na depress narin nung na deads ang laptop ko. So ang phone K nmn ay naghihingalo na rin. Happy Halloween to me.
Basically di me sanay doon, kaya till now iniingat ingatan ko din talaga itong pc ko T^T and keep track of my files kasi di me pala back up din sa drive ket alam ko kung gaano lang kadali T^T aaaa but pri we really need to get used to that practice na if we want to have a safe backup for our thoughts and emotions and our fictional characters' whole life stories. AAAAAAAAAAAAAA
@Novaelistah77 Nooo :< primitive is pen and paper, not smartphone writing ;) XD Well, kidding aside, I'm really sorry this happened to you T^T alam mo this was what kinda happened din sakin noon, so since then, kahit mahirap, I try to back my files up to the cloud, any cloud, really - cumulous, nimbus, stratos - just kidding, like gdrive, onedrive ganern. Ganun gawain ng kapatid ko now in which he types directly sa google docs para deretcho sa drive nya. Ako hindi sanay sa ganun since madali ako mainis sa layout ng gdocs. Nakakainis na nga maging abnormal yung ms word, mas nakakainis pa lalo pag gdocs nag abnormal T^T
Crap. I tried patching up my friggin keyboard but this time it finally gve up. Screw it.
One day, your skull will be as empty as a conch shell on a fence post, full of wind and gentle quiet.
Today, it's a cauldron of ghosts.
Flesh and electricity.
Water and memory.
A machine that makes reality.
Now. Here. Your skull is the garden where fact flowers into meaning.
-- The CryptoNaturalist
one of the best comments in yt by librarynerdforever:
“I’m coming to find you!” She yelled to her sister, who was hiding somewhere in the house.
She feel to her knees on the damp ground by her sister’s grave, and she felt the cold metal of the gun as she pressed it to her own forehead. “I’m coming to find you.”