Day 12
Lately, I’ve been feeling so drained. Every morning I tell myself to keep going, to stay strong, to smile even when I don’t feel like it. But deep down, I’m tired — not just physically, but emotionally.
I thought this internship would be about learning new things, meeting new people, and growing into the person I want to become. Instead, it feels like I’m fading a little more each day. I work hard, but sometimes it feels like no one notices. I sit quietly at my desk, surrounded by people, yet it’s like I’m not really there.
There’s this heavy kind of loneliness that comes with trying to fit in but never quite belonging. I miss having someone to talk to, someone who understands what it feels like to be new, nervous, and trying so hard to do everything right.
I keep reminding myself that this is just a phase — that one day I’ll look back and see it as part of my growth. But right now, in this moment, I just feel.... tired. Tired of pretending I’m okay. Tired of smiling through the silence.