Payton-Alice

Hey, I know I basically vanished from thin air, and I'm sorry. I got grounded until today and just now got my phone back, my apologies

Roselillay

Hey guys, if you read my book, weep, my harming angel, then you know that I chose to delete my channel. It's more thought out than that, but it's a long story. First my library had too many books so it kept crashing when I tried to read them and I've been thinking this over for quite some time now. I hope you guys understand and thank you for taking the time to read this.

Payton-Alice

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So, love will still be the death of me, but that's because I'm actually head over heals for an amazing man-child atm, a lot has happened, and I'm not gonna lie, the only reason I haven't updated is because I'm a lazy shit who needs to get off her arse more often. Now, I will try to update sometime in the next five days, but thank you guys for being patient with me

Payton-Alice

Hey guys, it's been really hard to write lately, I'm already starting to fail humanities, and there's so much going on, I just feel like I'm losing everything... There's just too much to focus on right now, and I'm just not sure what to do. I want to update, but my heart is killing me slowly. Love will be the death of me.

Payton-Alice

Hey guys, I haven't really found much motivation lately, all I seem to want to do is curl up in a pathetic little ball on my bed and cry. I don't want to move, I don't want to speak, I don't want to exist. I feel this burning need to repeat old habits, but I don't want to open old wounds... It's like I'm dying slowly inside and out. I have to force myself to eat, I have to force myself to move, I have to force myself to not just fall into old coping mechanisms because the last thing I need is to be worried about hiding more of my body when I'm already insecure as it is.... I don't want to do anything, I just want to cry. I wish I could be normal, but that'll probably never happen. Anyways, sorry for this depressing rant, I just don't have anyone to talk to, so I automatically reach out to wattpad as a crutch to get through it. Again, sorry....

Payton-Alice

School starts today..... Is it bad that I'm terrified? It's my last year in middle school, I went to the same place last year, but I'm absolutely petrified..... Maybe I'm scared to grow up? But that's silly, I've been acting mature since I was little, I was always mentally more mature than almost everyone my age, but, like a small child, I'm absolutely terrified and trembling at the thought of going back to school...... I don't know.... I'm probably just overreacting or something. It's just one more year, what could possibly go wrong?

Payton-Alice

Hey guys.... So... I couldn't sleep, and I'm really contemplating posting a poem that I've been sitting on for quite a few months, it's kinda just a quick release of some thoughts that plague my mind. It's funny, normal 13 year olds are focused on makeup and boys, where as, just the other day, I was looking at the different types of schools to send my future kids to because I want them to grow up in a good education system not the broken one at public schools. Anyways, enough emotional shtuff, I'm in the process of finishing getting my computer so give me two more days and I should start pushing out updates on Weep, My Harming Angel regularly (I say two more days because that's when the final parts for the system come in, but at most it'll be 5 days) anyways, thank you guys for reading this random spurt of my thoughts, I say some pretty interesting stuff when I can't sleep, or so I've been told, and according to some of the text conversations I read through once I'm more awake.