Peregrin Took

It baffles me how there are people who don’t think about hurting themselves every day
          Like what’s it like being not self destructive?

Got triggered over some Halloween stickers
          They probably should’ve looked like slashes from an animal or a werewolf but they were way too similar to THAT
          
          So now I’m sitting here trying to not hurt myself because that would be stupid and fake blood shouldn’t be so triggering 

Had a panic attack at school today
          
          Haha I’m so not doing good rn 

Okay so I hate it when in fics someone stops having depression the second they are told someone cares for them.
          
          Like bro do you know what depression is?

Hi
          I’m depressed and queer
          I find great comfort in rewatching shit I’ve watched multiple times already
          I really wanna cut my hair 
          
          Can I please get some form of stability?

HOW DO PEOPLE FIGURE OUT THEIR GENDER
          
          HELP

I really wanna cut my hair short

So I ruined it actually.
          Kinda funny how I was convinced I could do today

Made it a week…
          I feel very wrong and rn it feels like that would fix so many things. 
          I made it two months at one point
          Shouldn’t it get easier or something?

WHYYY IS IT SO HARD?
          
          
          I dyed my hair.
          I painted my nails.
          I’m doing everything I can to distract myself.
          
          It’s fucking hard not to think about the scars when you can see them forming