Ponzu

I literally can’t believe that it’s 2026, and four years since I ended up here. Hi everyone! Long time no talk, and happy new year! A lot has happened to me since I’ve been active on here. I was diagnosed with autism, my mental and physical health has been much better now that I have access to the medicine and support I need. Also I finally watched Chainsaw Man lol. I can’t believe it’s been four years! When I wrote my MHA fics and Nothing’s Forever, I was 14. I wrote Bloom and Summer and Starlight at 15. Crazy they got so popular! Now I’m exactly 3 months from turning 18, and I wish I could just hug 14 yo me, and tell her we made it. It really actually did get so much better!! I no longer score points on the depression screening. I’m on the road to graduating high school, and working a job I love at the aquarium. I still feel discontented with the body female puberty gave me, but I’m finding new clothes that I love and period blockers are a lifesaver. I’m happy! And I wish each and every one of you the greatest joy in the world. Thank you for supporting me and cheering me on for these last four years. It means more than you know. ❤️

Hey everyone! I hope you’re all doing okay and that you survived the holiday rush all right. I know I’m not very active on here all the time but I still read my comments. :> Guess what, I got a job! I volunteer at a conservation center and I’m working up to be able to care for the birds! I don’t know how to drive yet though. *sweatdrops* Driving is scary. I hope everyone here is doing well and taking care of yourselves as best you can. I’ve been struggling with eating, like remembering to eat and knowing what to eat and such, plus what I can eat without getting sick, but I’m trying my best. I’m still here if anyone needs me. Have a good day. <3

Crying screaming throwing up one of my characters from one of my favorite shows is pregnant!!! I’ve never really had a pregnant character before and I’m so excited to see her baby!! <3333

Cannot believe we reached 40k on Bloom,,, where I am now used to feel so unattainable, I love you guys <333

US folks, I feel so fucking scared and hopeless. Please let us get through this, and I’m so sorry. It’s not my fault and I know that but I’m still so, so sorry. Stay safe. </3

So many of my favorite Killugon fanfics are gone from here, I’m starting to cry. One of them even had an incredible OC who helped young Ponzu find out who they were, that character meant so much. I’m so heartbroken there’s no words. I guess so much can really change in two years…

Hello loves! I’m heading to Comic Con, so same as ever if you’re going to be there let me know! :) 

Sabigiyuu :(

I want chicken nuggies and Respectless from Hazbin Hotel on my headphones and no shoes and fresh air… instead I’m carsick in traffic… -_-

Maybe I’m just bad at taking care of myself when my mom’s not around… she was having her gallbladder taken out (which was successful so I’m so relieved!!) but I didn’t know what to do with myself so I just ate a cup of pretzels and hummus for breakfast and watched Hazbin Hotel all morning… that plus waking up at 5 am and I’m wondering why I feel like shit