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I'm just gonna believe that Jay needed her more than us. Rest in peace Fizzy

Don't know if I'd be here, if Niall Horan hadn't decided to write "Fire Away". Music literally saves lives.

i was stumbling, looking in the dark, with an empty heart.
          
          and you say you feel the same 
          
          could we ever be enough?
          
          baby we could be enough 

I think it's alright if I cry for no reason sometimes.

I AM DYING
          So we had our weapon training lecture and we were being taught "loading, cocking and unloading of rifle". And obviously I read cocking as cock-ring (thanks to Wattpad) 
          HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO PASS WEAPON TRAINING WITH MY MIND LYING LOW IN THE GUTTER?!?!!!!!!???

I've heard and read so much about people being depressed and lonely because they don't have friends or have fake friends. Today I realised that sometimes you feel lonely even if you indeed have true friends. And I feel guilty about feeling this way because I know that if I ever even uttered a word about feeling lonely my three best friends would pull their hearts out of their chests if it meant I would stop feeling like this. But I do feel this way. I can't stop feeling like a loser. Because someone who is lonely despite having THREE best friends who would be at their service anytime, anyday must surely be a loser?

thanks for reading coffee and tea xoxo <333 i have 2 other stories if you’d like to check those out!! ily!! xxxx

I'm afraid of mornings since my demons don't lurk in the dark

Needing to vent off without the fear of opening up to anyone is why I prefer these walls. Because, unlike the walls in the real world, they don't make me feel constricted and rather free. I never had a way with words, I'm all thoughts. But it gets frustrating at some point not being able to give those thoughts an outlet, because I don't know how. I wish I had the ability to write, so that life wouldn't be as suffocating anymore.

I'm exhausted of being stronger than I feel.