@Psalm150l1l5 Brother, I am not going to save it. You yourself above said that we Christians are called to "believe and trust the Word of God with all your heart, life and soul." This includes living it out, right? The Bible talks about not forgiving others. Let's see, shall I dig out some Bible verses?
"If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly Father will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, your Father will not forgive your sins" (Matthew 6:14-15, NLT).
"Look after each other so that none of you fails to receive the grace of God. Watch out that no poisonous root of bitterness grows up to trouble you, corrupting many" (Hebrews 2:15).
So, my friend, I understand that as fallen sinners, we are still unable to fully comply with the Word of God. I fall short all the time. I think that was made abundantly clear when I said what I said and did what I did last week. But as a follower of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I know that if I repent and ask God for forgiveness, He is just and righteous to cleanse me of my sins.
You don't have to forgive me if you don't want to, but just know that I don't waste my time and energy on people I don't care about. If I didn't care, I would indeed, as you said, "save it." But the truth is, I do care, and I am truly sorry for what I did.
FYI, I deleted everything from that night so that no more people will see it.
God bless you, brother.
Blessings,
-creative_ben