Pumpkinquills

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*sigh* I'm a simp.

I must appolegise. I have never in my life had such a lack of consentration. Everyone i don't think I'll have anything written by the end of the week...
          I hope that when i go back to work and get some routine again I'll be able to get some things done, even if slowly. ^^;
          I'm so sorry, that the second chapter has been taking forever.. I really fo wanna finish that book, it might just take a good while ^^;;;;;;;

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'm not religiouse and I don't think I could convince myself of a god if I wanted to...
          But I'm starting to feel like I need Jesus.

Your profile pic! It's adorable~

Today I kind of noticed, just how much less I've been worrying about my health the past few days. I barely thought about it when it has been one of my main thinking topics for months. (aside from the tiredness that comes with my meds)
          
          It's so odd, how you can just feel like garbage and for some reason think that's normal for months at a time :p
          
          And only when you start feeling normal again do you truly notice how bad things have been... I wonder if that was some kind of coping mechanism my brainworm came up with or if I'm just plane stupid :0
          
          The... weird feeling in my limbs that I've had for the entire time i was without medication... and a coupple of weeks/months before that... I think it's mostly gone... (It's always a little there but it was significantly more noticable without meds... I think it always being there is why I didn't think... as much of it as I probably should've) 
          
          For weeks I had to like... brace myself when I was trying to just stand up! Now I just do it like a normal fucking person! It feels so wierd to not feel weird... or well to think about it i suppose ',:/
          
          Thinking about the limb weirdness in particular now... I... wonder If I was really just feeling like that or if it was.. Idk visible to other people.. I'm asuming not otherwise one of the 30 people I surround myself with daily, surely would've said something about me walking around weirdly... right?
          
          I also guess... the weirdest thing of all is just my neurologist who kees on telling me that I'm fine... or at least that this doesn't sound like my epilepsy. What else would it be then? What, my condition just magically changed from Epilepsy to some random potion effect, did I drink a suspiciouse stew?
          
          I mean I don't blame her, she is just doing her job, a good doc will not give you a deffinitive answer if they don't have any proof to back up thier statement.. I appreciate her honesty and her optimism. It's just not really helping I suppose.

Okay, okay, I think I found my writing Jam:
          First off, Ultrakill ost (thanks to Milo btw ;)
          Kirbys epic yarn ost
          and Murderdrones ost.
          Lovely to listen too and different levels of exciting depending on how easily distractable I am on different days >:)

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