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I feel like everyone's just ignoring me on here, like my presence is basically meaningless. I barely use this app anymore, but, still.

Sorry I went missing for a solid week, I’m kinda doing better though 

Sorry for yapping abt my own problems mb im not even going through that much compared to other ppl so i should just shut up

Why can’t any cis male i become friends with be a genuinely good person I know like one. Same thing with my family too they’re all homophobic or abusive as shit except my grandma, my dad, my stepmom, and my uncle and cousin so it’s all the people on my dad’s side who don’t have a religion to use as an excuse for bigotry which makes it to where they’re actually good people and don’t use the bible as an excuse to hate their own family

I’m so tired of pretending to be something that I’m not out of fear. I am not your daughter; nor your sister; nor am I your niece. I am not what you believe I am. I am tired of hiding from myself to make YOU happy, just because you couldn’t love your own children. Your own family. Just because you think you’re the only one who’s right. Just because you think you’re oh-so amazing and you could never do wrong, just because you think your children will follow in your footsteps and become horrible people too. And some of them have, but that doesn’t mean I will. And I’m so sorry you think that way, but if your god is real, was you say he is, you’re probably the one going to hell, not me. You do not make me feel loved. I do not feel safe around you, and I never will. I feel more safe around my friends than my own parent, you. I don’t care if you think I’ll go to hell, I didn’t choose to be like this. I didn’t choose for you to be my parent. If I could, I’d choose anyone other than you. You make me feel terrible, disgusting, and unsafe. You make my blood boil, make my skin crawl. I still love you; I just don’t love the way you treat me, the way you treat others. You’re a disgusting, hateful being. But I still love you. So sure, you can disown me, kick me out, kill me (Although you probably won’t be able to do it before I do to myself) but you will never change anything. Never will change how terrible you are. I’m sorry.

MY ASSHOLE BROTHER HIT ME IN THE ELBOW WITH A WATER BOTTLE AND NOW I CAN’T FEEL MY ARM

Guys go follow my father (jk) @definitelynotwrenha pls

I'm so pissed off why is my sister literally screaming at the top of her lungs at me what the fuck is wrong with my family. I literally can't sleep because she won't shut the fuck up. Lowkey wish my mom got an abortion before she had me because why is my life fucking terrible?? I feel like everyone hates me. Like my ex best friend keeps trying to convince me all my other friends hate me and I'm lowkey starting to believe her. But I'd totally get why they hate me because its hard to love someone who doesn't love themselves. And I know I sound corny as shit but I'm entirely serious here. I wish I just didn't exist. I don't want to live in this small town where everyone hates each other anymore. But if I die I'll probably go to hell according to my shitty mother. I'll burn in hell because I'm "A girl who believes she is a boy". God, I wish I could just be fucking normal. Why can't I be a fucking normal person? Why must I be like this?  I just want to delete myself from existence honestly at this point.

I’m so pissed right now, my mom just threatened to send me to a Christian school because she thought I was gay, what the fuck. (I am gay but still) I’m actually losing it I think I’m just going to delete myself from existence

WHO TF GOT MY POST DELETED