I would like you all to know that I am not going to be pro ana anymore. I am actually gaining by restricting and I am tired of hating myself. I am still going to lose weight but I want to do it in a healthy way that I can feel happy doing. Meditating is quieting my busy and perfectionist mind and I am doing plenty of exercise. I have given up on junk food for good, am in the process of turning vegetarian with my ultimate goap being vegan; I plan to treat my body like a temple.
I'd like to make it clear that this new change isn't due to me being unable to follow your lifestyle, it is because I finally realised that restriction and physical appearance doesn't define who you are. I was reminded by someone that I am better than I think I am and this time it struck a chord. I am better and stronger, more creative and intelligent AND more beautiful that I give myself credit for. All of you are. I have made my decision to be healthy as well as slim, and it's not too late to change your own minds either. I'm not trying to preach to or belittle you but if you ever want to talk or want help but you think you've gone too far, pm me. Honestly. I understand. I will respect whatever decision you make and feel is best for you though.
Thank you to all of you pro anas for making me feel so supported and not alone, but I'm afraid this is the end of my journey. You are all wonderful, incredible, beautiful and inspirational people though and I'd like to keep in contact despite everything. Sorry for the long update, I just wanted to let it all out! Love all of you guys!
Angel xxx
