Hah, crazy bird! I'll keep reading as long as you keep writing. I'm finding it all very interesting. So far it seems that your young man brought so many additional challenges and experiences to your life, that you'll never be able to forget his presence. It would seem a lifetime of smiles and tears have been condensed into the few short years you did spend together. If I have any comment, I would like to read the odd paragraph about the good times too, bring out some of the joy, laughter and the enrichment Derek brought to you and the others around him. Well done so far, you're doing a great job. xx