Okay....soo,I got a dilemma. A big one,in fact and I was hoping that you guys could help me.
So,my entire life,the concept of love has been a great mystery, considering that I've never liked anyone before,and even if I thought I did,it was nothing serious....Up until now. There is this girl(yes I'm a girl too...there's a possibility that I'm bi but I'm not entirely sure either),my classmate and desk mate that really turned my world upside down. Like, we have been friends before too,but this year(well not exactly this year,October ,November something like that)we're getting along really really well. She considers me her best friend and I am happy,but....since some months ago it seemed that I've kind of developed a crush on her? I mean,at first it was nothing serious,(the occasional flutter of my heart when she would touch me,or thinking about her from time to time,smiling at her for no apparent reason,getting kind of lightheaded when she was around) but then as days were going by my feelings were growing constantly. My heart rate is always abnormal when she's around,and let's not talk about when she touches me...or HUGS me(yeah we do that,I'm always afraid that she'll hear my heart) I'm always thinking about her and I find myself smiling(something strange because I hardly ever smile),I often get this urges not just to kiss,or touch her,but to try and please her,make her happy.Like i can be wondering around the mall and then suddenly she pops in my mind and i can't help but think about all of the great stuff we would do if we were together all because i want her to be happy and smiling. And omg that clenching of my heart every time we discuss about the LGBTQ community (yes she supports it,but she's made it pretty clear that she's straight)and i just feel my heart shattering because I know she would not return my feelings...never ever.
