"I am no one, and I don't want to be anyone."-Obito
I am me, myself and I.
Why do you ask why?
Three's company,
Sometimes never lonely;
Man and shadow with a new alias,
Having no conscious form of bias.
My Mask masked behind my face;
He is my guest, to entertain him is the test.
How can I do better when I'm doing my best?
Anything and everything at his behest.

My sole purpose for this life is: Searching for unhappiness.

I think, and then I pen my thoughts down. Simple process? No,everything requires work. Still I'd hate for contemplative thinking to be wasted.

Shikamaru Nara, Izayoi, Shintaro, Hikigaya Hachiman and Houtarou Oreki motivated me when I had all but given up on having fun. I've resolved to do things at my own pace and get more sleep so my gray matter may fetch an appropriate price during the zombie apocalypse.

-I've drawn inspiration from:

*Tool(yes,the infamous rock band)/Katatonia(fore-runners of depressive rock)
Chevelle( I really like the raw emotion ) & Anathema (depressive but releasing)
*Anime(Gintama to Hyouka)


-Music-Alternative,Rock,Metal,
-Novels:From Stephan King(Dark Tower) to Charles Dickens
-Art: Abstract or plain old gloomy.(Just inspire me!)
-Favorite quote:"If life doesn't offer a game worth playing, then invent a new one."-Anthony J. D'Angelo
-Video Games: Role-playing games,Runescape(Currently on an indefinite leave)

[]Success
[]Failure
[x]In between

A little something I found in an old old poem thread from maze city forums..

*ALL CREDITS go to: The Dark Angel.

"The will to live, is something I don't have
it' not something you hold, or something you grab
It's something that comes from your soul.
to find it you have to dig deep, deep as a mole.

I never had it, that urge in me
I always gave up, and let things be.
I stayed alone, with no friends at all
With no one to comfort me, or heed my call.
as sad as it sounds, it's alright with me
with no one around, I sit alone happily.
  • JoinedJuly 20, 2013



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Ruminator Ruminator May 13, 2014 06:35PM
@sapphire_kitty: why thank you! I've been struggling to get the right rhythm for a while now so that really cheered me up :)
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