if angsty…then i have one hehe. okay so long story short, chan burns himself. why? to stay awake. when he’s in the studio at 3 am and needs to finish something even though he’s tired asf he burns himself, thigh, hand whatever. just long enough for it to hurt so bad that he can’t stay asleep. he’s been doing this for months, putting some healing balm over the scars so the members won’t notice. but one time, hyunjin comes to the studio to check on chan and he sees it. when hyunjin walks in chan fumbles with the lighter and it falls to the ground, and when hyunjin is right beside him he sees the lighter and then the smell hits. disgusting burning flesh. and he connects the dots.
