Ryuko_riri
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Somehow.
I was thinking of dying-
but somehow, I'm still alive.
Can you believe that?
Because I can't.
I've cried, oh trust me, I've cried a hell lot for this life of mine.
A life that often felt like a joke, a burden, a punishment. But I'm here. Still.
Somehow.
I don't even know how I'm doing it.
Because even now,
when I glance back at the past, some things still haunt me. Still shake me.
Still make me want to curl up and disappear.
Does that mean I'm weak?
Or maybe...
maybe I'm strong and just too broken to feel it.
Because I've made it this far.
And that-that has to count for something, right?
But the truth is, I don't have it all figured out.
Not my life, not my purpose, not my path.
Maybe the real meaning of life
is simply to give it meaning. To carve light into our own dark
corners.
To find answers not outside, but in the way we choose to live.
And to you-yes, you-the ones who are hurting, the ones who feel done, the ones who can't see tomorrow...
Please, don't end it.
Not now. Not like this.
But don't lie to yourself either-Life isn't always going to be "fine".
It's rough, messy, unfair. It's a bitch-ha, yeah I said it. (Kidding. Not really.)
Life isn't a rainbow.
But it's not pitch black either.
Real life is grey.
A chaotic blend of black-the darkness, and white-the peace.
In this grey world,
you won't always know what's hurting you and what's healing you.
But if you want peace, you've got to sit with the dark too.
You've got to accept that both exist.
That's the deal. That's the truth.
So keep going-
not with false hope that tomorrow will be softer, but with the quiet, fierce promise
that you will be stronger.
You'll fight harder. You'll scream if you have to, cry
if you must,
but you'll keep going.
And babe, that's what makes you brave.
That's what makes you alive.
Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri yup I agree with whatever you all said! Also, Wp is just soo boring and I too don't have time to write like it's really getting so much occupied in my life. I feel like deleting this app like it's not worth it at all! Also aging is so tiring and full of responsibilities that my shoulders and backache are becoming more from now on only. Still had to do for family! Anyways take care of yourself and give holy is kissy from me. Also, I'm not a paragraph person anymore ╥﹏╥ ❤
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Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri yeah I'm doing well, I'm so sorry to hear about your downfall. I hope you'll manage through this! But, don't forget to take care of yourself!
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Ryuko_riri
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@Namjoonaahhh_2 @Namjoonaahhh_2 oh hi babe, got to hear you after so long, well I have been thinking about you lately, btw how are you doing, how is your health? I hope you are fine A lots of things happened and changed within this time I have lots of shits to tell you I returned from that 3 month long trip 4 days ago so I am resting for this week Last month was terrifying for me, our business faced a sudden downfall, one of our clubs got shut down too, things totally went out of hand because of dad Somehow we managed to merge those employees of that club to one of our other clubs Believe me when I heard that news of our club shutting down it was night at that time and I cried like shit
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Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri I hope it heals very soon! About relationship, I can only tell you to be strong enough no matter what comes.
Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri I'm doing fine as* shyt. Ohh that's cool, stay happy and don't eat too much ice cream lol or else you might catch a cold
Ryuko_riri
Somehow.
I was thinking of dying-
but somehow, I'm still alive.
Can you believe that?
Because I can't.
I've cried, oh trust me, I've cried a hell lot for this life of mine.
A life that often felt like a joke, a burden, a punishment. But I'm here. Still.
Somehow.
I don't even know how I'm doing it.
Because even now,
when I glance back at the past, some things still haunt me. Still shake me.
Still make me want to curl up and disappear.
Does that mean I'm weak?
Or maybe...
maybe I'm strong and just too broken to feel it.
Because I've made it this far.
And that-that has to count for something, right?
But the truth is, I don't have it all figured out.
Not my life, not my purpose, not my path.
Maybe the real meaning of life
is simply to give it meaning. To carve light into our own dark
corners.
To find answers not outside, but in the way we choose to live.
And to you-yes, you-the ones who are hurting, the ones who feel done, the ones who can't see tomorrow...
Please, don't end it.
Not now. Not like this.
But don't lie to yourself either-Life isn't always going to be "fine".
It's rough, messy, unfair. It's a bitch-ha, yeah I said it. (Kidding. Not really.)
Life isn't a rainbow.
But it's not pitch black either.
Real life is grey.
A chaotic blend of black-the darkness, and white-the peace.
In this grey world,
you won't always know what's hurting you and what's healing you.
But if you want peace, you've got to sit with the dark too.
You've got to accept that both exist.
That's the deal. That's the truth.
So keep going-
not with false hope that tomorrow will be softer, but with the quiet, fierce promise
that you will be stronger.
You'll fight harder. You'll scream if you have to, cry
if you must,
but you'll keep going.
And babe, that's what makes you brave.
That's what makes you alive.
Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri yup I agree with whatever you all said! Also, Wp is just soo boring and I too don't have time to write like it's really getting so much occupied in my life. I feel like deleting this app like it's not worth it at all! Also aging is so tiring and full of responsibilities that my shoulders and backache are becoming more from now on only. Still had to do for family! Anyways take care of yourself and give holy is kissy from me. Also, I'm not a paragraph person anymore ╥﹏╥ ❤
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Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri yeah I'm doing well, I'm so sorry to hear about your downfall. I hope you'll manage through this! But, don't forget to take care of yourself!
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Ryuko_riri
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@Namjoonaahhh_2 @Namjoonaahhh_2 oh hi babe, got to hear you after so long, well I have been thinking about you lately, btw how are you doing, how is your health? I hope you are fine A lots of things happened and changed within this time I have lots of shits to tell you I returned from that 3 month long trip 4 days ago so I am resting for this week Last month was terrifying for me, our business faced a sudden downfall, one of our clubs got shut down too, things totally went out of hand because of dad Somehow we managed to merge those employees of that club to one of our other clubs Believe me when I heard that news of our club shutting down it was night at that time and I cried like shit
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Ryuko_riri
Burden? Huh
I just published "Burden " of my story "Cracked Reflections". https://www.wattpad.com/1545809204?utm_source=android&utm_medium=profile&utm_content=share_published&wp_page=create_on_publish&wp_uname=Ryuko_riri
Ryuko_riri
Ooooiiii today is my birthday.... (Party party yeah)
Lets get drunk tonight ★
(lol kidding)
Ryuko_riri
@Ayesha_iftequar thankyou sweetheart ♥ (And yeah my little baby sis shouldn't drink, don't learn bad things from your unnie)
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Ayesha_iftequar
@Ryuko_riri HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYUKO UNNIE... May god bless you with success and happiness.... Party party yeah..... (I don't drink)
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Ryuko_riri
Ohhhhh! Why life gotta be this hard that you well thought of dying every other day ??!!!!
Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri I'm doing good too. Glad to hear about you! I just don't open this app anymore yk! I miss you too! I hope you are taking good care of yourself. I'm sorry I'm no more paragraph guy anymore, it's busy insanely!
Namjoonaahhh_2
@Ryuko_riri nothing special, just casual life!
chimCherry7
Hey, I saw you read Yoonmin ffs, if you get time may be check my one too. Thank You.
https://www.wattpad.com/story/374729917?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=story_info&wp_page=story_details_button&wp_uname=chimCherry7