SapphireMorningstar

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I am officially leaving this app and I won't be taking my writing anywhere I won't be publishing it anywhere. I will no longer be online. Any books that I've had or I've published or whatever, I'm going to keep to myself. I am so sick and so tired of the fake friendships the fake connections the fleeting passers by, I'm so sick and tired of just Wattpad as a whole. This place used to be so free and now it's not. One of my stories literally got unjustly taken down just because there was smut in the first two chapters which is very offensive to me because I am an adult monster romance writer. I am 29 years old. I write adult monster romance unapologetically and unashamed. I'm tired of the games I'm tired of the bullshit I'm tired of people cutting me off for one reason or another I'm tired of people blocking me I'm tired of people treating me like shit. It is clear that I am not appreciated here it is clear that I am not wanted here anymore it is clear that I have overstayed my goddamn welcome! The one fucking person who I'm even afraid to mention because his little friend will be on my ass if I even so much as mentioned his username, but anyway the one fucking person who I actually want to talk with and actually want a part of my life doesn't want me a part of his anymore so I literally have nothing to lose I have no reason to stay here on a fucking platform who simply just does not fucking appreciate me. I own nothing to no one especially not here. And especially not to a bunch of people who constantly remind me, you don't belong here. So goodbye Wattpad, I won't miss you. You've brought me nothing but horrible memories, loneliness, isolation and abuse and pain.

SapphireMorningstar

this message may be offensive 
I am officially leaving this app and I won't be taking my writing anywhere I won't be publishing it anywhere. I will no longer be online. Any books that I've had or I've published or whatever, I'm going to keep to myself. I am so sick and so tired of the fake friendships the fake connections the fleeting passers by, I'm so sick and tired of just Wattpad as a whole. This place used to be so free and now it's not. One of my stories literally got unjustly taken down just because there was smut in the first two chapters which is very offensive to me because I am an adult monster romance writer. I am 29 years old. I write adult monster romance unapologetically and unashamed. I'm tired of the games I'm tired of the bullshit I'm tired of people cutting me off for one reason or another I'm tired of people blocking me I'm tired of people treating me like shit. It is clear that I am not appreciated here it is clear that I am not wanted here anymore it is clear that I have overstayed my goddamn welcome! The one fucking person who I'm even afraid to mention because his little friend will be on my ass if I even so much as mentioned his username, but anyway the one fucking person who I actually want to talk with and actually want a part of my life doesn't want me a part of his anymore so I literally have nothing to lose I have no reason to stay here on a fucking platform who simply just does not fucking appreciate me. I own nothing to no one especially not here. And especially not to a bunch of people who constantly remind me, you don't belong here. So goodbye Wattpad, I won't miss you. You've brought me nothing but horrible memories, loneliness, isolation and abuse and pain.

SapphireMorningstar

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Yeah screw this fucking app okay? I ain't got no fucking friends on here The one person I want to talk to never wants to speak to me again. Screw this fucking app  screw you all! Now my fucking stories are getting deleted and shit? Yeah no I'm out. I don't fucking give a shit if I've been here since 2015 I'm out of here. I ain't got nothing here.

SapphireMorningstar

@Artsywriter729 yeah so I mean make sense why I'd want to leave.
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Artsywriter729

@BrokenJasper Yeah that makes sense.
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SapphireMorningstar

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@Artsywriter729 I just on top of missing him like this is shitty. I've been here since 2015. Wattpad just doesn't give a shit about its users anymore. And on top of missing my friend and not knowing where I stand or if he cut me off or like if he'll come back or you know stuff like that I'm just like dude I can't do this anymore. The one place that I thought was my safe space and it's like really? And like I said I'm still having a hard time because I miss my friend. I want nothing more than to talk to him and to repair things and stuff but at the same time it's like I don't want to violate his boundaries or anything like that both of my friends are pretty much upset and mad at me. And rightfully so because I see where they are looking in their perspective if you know what I mean like I see where they're coming from. I mean if somebody who you thought was your friend was venting about you I'm pretty sure you'd be sad and pissed and everything else in between I've had it happen to me before actually. Two people who one of them used to be one of my ex-girlfriends and the other one I thought was my friend like another it was a different friend. But anyway I thought like they actually cared about me or whatever and turns out they got together on one of their message boards and basically trashed me and not only did they trash me but they trashed me on my birthday of all days. Because the person who I thought was my friend and again this was a different person but anyway they literally posted an announcement I think it was on their message board actually they were like today is my toxic friend's birthday and I just wanted to talk about them or whatever and then my now ex-girlfriend posted and was like you can talk to me or whatever and that's when they got together and they just started trashing me so yeah I see where my friend who's mad at me is coming from. So I can see why she was mad and protective over my other friend. I see where I went wrong.
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SapphireMorningstar

This is my December 
          
          This is my time of the year 
          
          This is my December 
          This is all so clear. 
          
          This is my December, this is my snow covered haul. This is my December
          This is me alone 
          
          And I 
          
          Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed 
          
          Take back all the things I said to make you feel like that 
          
          Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed 
          
          Take back all the things that I said to you. 
          
          And I'd give it all away 
          
          Just to have somewhere to go to. 
          
          Give it all away 
          
          To have someone to come home to.

OracleOfFire

@BrokenJasper this is beautiful
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