Scraps

I JUST REALIZED I'M SEVEN HOURS INTO THE FUTURE!!! OH MY GOSHHHHHHHH!!!! 

I ATEEEEE AFTER SOME HOURS OF FASTING. THE FAST ENDED AT 5:49 PM FOR ME, BUT IT DEPENDS ON WHICH MOSQUE YOU FOLLOW. FASTING WAS QUITE EASY FOR ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T EVEN FASTTTTT. MY PERIOD DECIDED NOT TO STOP BUT IT HAS SLOWED DOWN A LOT. 

4:36 AM here!!!! How u doing, my love??? 

Here to vent if you don't mind. It'll be long. I feel like none of my friends that I see in real life take my concerns seriously, except maybe a few. I've been starving myself. I don't even know if it's considered starving though. Normally, me (or practically everyone in my school) eat after school but I've been missing it and missing breakfast. I only eat at school lunch and a small dinner at home (or whatever my mummy gives me) I don't know if I have told you their names or I've mentioned them before, but it's the two boys who sit next to me. Let's call them "IA" and "BS" I don't know why the fatshame me. IA never used to do that to Julia when she sat in my spot. My other friend, A, who sits next to IA says he has gotten ruder. I don't know if BS was nice to his previous partner before he was moved next to me, but it seemed like he was. I don't know why they do it. My mummy doesn't know it's because of them. She says I might develop some sort of tummy virus that'll make my tummy feel like it's burning if I don't eat, but it feels like the only way. I've been crying for so long now I feel like crying again because I've mentioned it. My vision is somewhat blurry and I can't exhale through my nose because it feels like I can't breathe. I want to scream at them, to cry buy it'll cause a scene. My school is shit. If I tell off them, I have a feeling their friend group will gang up on me. Teachers normally lecture the child or let them off with a warning, but they continue. I've asked A to ask IA and possibly BS why they treat me and her like this but not to mention me. My eyes hurt now. Everytime my stomach hurts, I don't know if it's because of my period or because I'm starving. 

GURL, WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN???? JK, JK, HOW'S BASKETBALL???? I JUST FINISHED MY MOSQUE EXAMS AND SURPRISINGLY I GOT AN A ON ALL OF THE TOPICS!!! RAMADAN IS COMING UP AND I'M ON MY PERIOD, DYING FROM CRAMPS RN, SO I'M REALLY NERVOUS IF I GO INTO RAMADAN BC I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO SAY AS AN EXCUSE FOR NOSY BOYS. BTW, I HAVE THIS OTHER ONLINE FRIEND (I'M NOT CHEATING ON YOU) WHO'S LIKE 27 RN AND I CONFESSED TO HIM THAT I'M VERRYYYYY YOUNG AND I'M MUSLIM BC I DO NOT WANT HIM TO GET A PEDO CASE. HE WAS COOL W IT BUT I FEEL LIKE I MADE IT AWKWARD BETWEEN USSSSS. HELPPPPPP. I GOT TO MAKE UP FOR MISSED ASSESSMENTS FOR SCHOOL AS WELL LIKE GURLLLLLL. LUCKILY I HAD THE TEACHER EXPLAIN THE QUESTIONS I COULDN'T DO TO ME CUS THEY NEVER DO THAT NORMALLY. SO I LEARNT HOW TO GET DECIMALS DIVISION (WHATEVER IT'S CALLED) WHILE THE REST OF MY MATHS CLASS DON'T. TBH, I DON'T UNDERSTAND RATIO (IT WASN'T ON THE TEST AND WE HAVEN'T LEARNT IT YET BUT) BUT I DO UNDERSTAND IT IF THAT MAKES SENSE. LIKE THERE'S THREE COWS AND TWO CATS, THE RATIO IS 3:2 AND I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT MAKES SENSE. LIKE THE COLONS SEPARATING THE DIFFERENCE OF SOMETHING???? I'M SORRY THIS IS LONG BUT LOVE YOUUUUUU. 

AHHH, I HAVE EXAMS IN MOSQUE TODAY!!! HELP MEE!!! I'M SO NERVOUS. I WISH I GOT MY PERIOD TODAY!!! MY BIG BRO IS READING QURAN RN SO I'MMA GO PRACTICE AS WELL!!!! SUNSET PRAYER IS COMING SOON AS WELL!!!! 

IT'S MY LIL BRO'S BIRTHDAY TODAY AND HE'S NINE!! GOSH, HE'S SO OLD. UGHHHHHHHHHH. 

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I'M GOING BACK TO ENGLAND!!! I'M IN MY TRANSIT RN, BACK IN BAHRAIN. I'M SAD THOUGH, I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL THOUGH AND LEAVE MY RELIGIOUS SCARED COUNTRY BUT HEY, YOU'RE STILL W ME!!!! 

YOUR NEW BIO (or whatever it's called) HONESTLY MADE ME LAUGH WITH THE "too gay to function" ALSO, BEAUTIFUL NEW PROFILE PIC!!!