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It's about time I be honest of you guys.
I started this account because of the fear that was built on my original account, @MikuLuigi07 , but nothing changed. All of the fear came with me, if not became worse. I was never going to make a story on this account because I was afraid of being perfect, like I needed the most readers on every chapter. Every time I post a story, I unpublish it immediately because I was scared and I had no idea if I really wanted to work on it, as in enjoy it with everyone loving it. I got so scared that I can't write anything on the chapter page.
I was also trying to predict every single moment so I wouldn't piss anyone off, as well as predict how fans will react. I can't control everything and I didn't believe that.
The worst part is, this isn't even you guys' fault. It's all mine. I put myself in that perfectionist mindset because of what one of my family members said as well as how ungrateful fans can be on the internet. I portrayed that fear and hatred to all my fans, and that wasn't cool. I'm not a saint and I don't want to be, but I felt like I had to or else everyone would hate me. Basically be like the Mr. Beast everyone saw before shit came out.
I'm sorry that I saw all fans in a hated light, and I'm sorry for being too scared in being perfect that I couldn't write anything. I should've just write and let things be. It worked in the past, but I couldn't accept not having 10 Trillion views the second I released a chapter.
And to think I'm only now saying this because of the shit that's going to happen on the internet soon. I was originally going to stay quiet and leave silently, having fans wait forever for any updates or any new stories when they were never coming, assuming I had any fans.
I guess with all of this, I'm done here. I want to say it would've been fun writing stories, but I had too much fear that I would've been in this same mindset forever. I have things I need to go through myself first.
Good bye.