ShenkaMelon

When you go back and see how cringy you were 4 years ago. It's nasty. Lmao

ShenkaMelon

Hello I know the Christmas specials never came out and I'm sorry about that. I think that any of my unfinished fanfictions are going to be taken down for now because there is no point in me having them up if I never update them. I'm sorry but I'm going to take them down until I have more time and motivation to write those specific fanfictions. I hope that one day you all understand and that the fanfictions I take down end up getting put back up someday. I will probably take down all my unfinished fanfictions on January 10th.

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So it's officially time for me to get working on the Christmas Specials I hope you guys are excited because I'm working super hard on them. I think the first one to come out will probably be the Kuudere one followed by the Sting x Reader. If you have any new story suggestions I'm all ears because I love writing so much. I hope that y'all have a good rest of your day or night wherever you are and as Always I'm Still Trash.

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So I'm sorry to bother you all again I just wanted to talk about something that's always on my mind. So everyone goes through something difficult some more than others. I'm not saying this to talk about my difficult times I'm saying this because at this moment in time some of my friends are going through a difficult time wither it be from depression, anxiety, family, school, or even friends. I just feel like I can't help them in anyway I can only observe because I have no idea how to help and it hurts a lot to see my friends going through so much and I'm just there being useless. I hope that people don't feel the way I do because the pain of not being to help people I care for is the worst thing in the world. I really am a Cancer. Lol. Anyways as always I'm Still Trash and am still working on the stories so sorry they aren't out yet.

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Hey y'all I'm bored so I'm writing this as a little update. Sorry I haven't been posting on Wattpad for a while I've just been working on a lot of stuff and finals are coming up so yeah I probably won't be able to post too often although I will try to post more often. I hope to be able to post one more chapter for each of my stories and then a Christmas Special for each of them. Since the weekend starts tomorrow I'll probably work a lot and try to get one chapter out for each one and then I'll work on the Christmas Specials. Thank you all for being so patient I hope you have a great day or night wherever you are and as always I'm Still Trash.

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So I was thinking about how everyone I know has seemed to kind of isolate me and how I kind of just let it happen. Although I feel terrible for complaining because my friend has a problem and I'm complaining. I just feel selfish and I don't like it but I want to talk about this so I'm going to. I feel like everyone I'm close to is finding other people and are in the process of replacing me which I honestly think is for the better anyways. Since it means it's harder for me to hurt them with all of my dumb mistakes. Anyways I hope you all have a good day or night wherever you are.

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Hello people of Wattpad or just people that follow me. I'll be flat out honest I'm not happy right now and i wish I was especially because I have everything I've ever wanted. I know this is so weird I'm putting this on the internet so people can read it and so it's here forever. I don't want pity, I don't want people to try to cheer me up. This is my battle and I don't want people to depend on me to stay alive. Natural selection has it's ways either it takes me due to depression or not. It's my battle to fight not my friends or family's so please stop. Stop trying to help me and let me help myself. I have self-control and I plan to keep it. Me fighting this alone is my decision, it's how I want to fight my depression. So don't think that this is what everyone that has depression wants I'm speaking for myself not anyone else. If you take it as me talking about everyone you are an idiot. (Not Really) Anyways as Always I'm Still Trash

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Also if you know how to get rid of a crush let me know please?
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Hello people that are reading this.  Some may know me in real life and my phone broke again so that's annoying.  But anyways if you know me in real life I advise you to stop reading further seeing as I'm asking people I don't know for help... with something that's not my character. So people that are left nice to see you um....... I have a problem....... I like someone and it's unbearable because I know that I can never be with them and that even if I got the chance I would screw everything up. The problem with trying to get over them is that I think that I've fallen to much and well it's just like the stories say at least to me. It hurts so much when they say that they like someone else and they are my first thought in the morning when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I go to sleep. Honestly I think I'm screwed. I don't know how much to actually believe zodiac signs but mine is cancer I would say what the zodiac sign of the person I like is but since people don't listen to me are probably reading this anyways I'm not going to. I was going to give a hint but all of them are too obvious so I'll give a useless one, they aren't Scorpio or Aries.  Anyways have a nice night/day/evening depending on where you are. Also if someone in my real life read all this please tell me so I don't have to ask later.