(1) death felt cliché and as every other overused thought and form of opinion, it also felt the most natural to agree with. the only reason why he didn’t find pleasure at night with a knife in his hands and sanitary alcohol over his burning wounds was because he didn’t like clichés. it was quite the opposite. he despised them. the rotten hatred towards the stereotypical code that every human soul was ingrained to understand and tolerate, he felt it in every piece of his bones and it was breaking to admit that was the most permanent feeling that has ever crossed his heart.
it was sorrowful to admit that feeling was the most familiar he has ever been with anything and it was the only one that gave him a sense of belonging. because when you don’t belong anywhere else, you make your home out of hate and spite, out of the jealousy of the ones that have a place to call home and someone to call theirs.
[the art of letting yourself down to pick others up]