Anxiety

guys- idk where my motivation went, i had a bunch, I've written half another chapter/part, for EVERY book on here but I cant finish any of them, idk, maybe I could add someone to my acc to help give me inspo or we could make a collab book so I (we) get something out, so it would be like every other chapter and you write a little something, then you let me write the next part to our book then you write another part, so on etc. idk, lmk, I'll probably put it on a wheel if multiple people wanna do this, or the person who responds first, idk. but we'd need to be in touch, probably DMs on watt

*cutely decides to write a smut book* (sorry if you didn’t think this was a me thing but honestly- why not? I’m 14 and it’s obvious I know about that stuff and it’s fun/funny to write, but if you don’t like it you just don’t read it, go to a different book or stop following me, I’ll delete any hate against it- although i know this is the wrong place to say that bc it’s watt pad, I just wanted to make that clear^^)

Shinkami forever huh? What are you doing in a kamikiri book then?

Fuck life, Fuck my mom, Fuck my dads work, fuck you thoughts of sh, fuck school, fuck my stupid mind, FUCK MY FUCKING MOM. I just want to live with my dad and I would run away to his place if HIS FUCKING WORK DIDNT SEND HIM TO FUCKING COLORADO. I feel like I don’t wanna be hee, but I DO, I don’t feel like I DESERVE to be here, why he fuck do people say “eVeRy thInG hApPenS foR a ReaSon” so WHY THE FUCKIS MY MOM STATING TO MAKE ME FEEL UGLY, USELESS, WORTHLESS, STUPID, WHY IS SHE MAKING ME FEEL AS IF I’M THE WORST FUCKING THING IN HER LIFE, I’M GETTING THOUGHTS OF SH FROM H E R. she keeps saying “if you don’t wanna live with me then what’s the point in me living” ID BE BETTER OFF I YOU WENT YOU FUCKING ASS HOLE, ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOUR BOYFRIEND AND YOU, Y O U.
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          Sorry- IDK I might ghost wattpad but still read fanfics… li is at its shittyst

hey- sorry but yet again- I'm not posting tonight, I didnt wright yesterday but I'll try to have something up on the 9th!

welp apparently I'm stupid, I uploaded on the 28th so my usual scheduled post would be tmr so- EXPECT A NORMAL UPLOAD LMDAO (laughing my dumbass off)

sorry I cant post tonight bc I have to practice for the Annie Jr. auditions that are tmr- I havent practiced at all-

Part 3 to "That Boy" BakuKami book will be short but updated 10/27/23 at 10:00 pm (CDT)

Pt. 2 to "That Boy" will be up at 10:00 pm (CDT)

I JUST GOT A HELL OF A LOT OF MOTIVATION FOR A BAKUKAMI SHORT BOOK!