I would like you to know, I am writing this while procrastinating... I'm my own worst enemy. 

I am constantly dissapointed when my life doesn't work out. I feel embarrassed and ashamed of myself most of the time because I feel I am useless and not in control Sigh. 

I hate talking to people and meeting new people and just people in general, but feel so incredibly awkward in silence that I talk excessively to fill the quietness, in doing so, making both myself and the other person/people VERY uncomfortable. I don't know how to stop. 

So I thought writing might help me ease the time and will be something to do in the mean time I find it a helpful way to make things more enjoyable and might help me better my depression and anxiety 😰