I Am Me

Two things I have to question with the Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss series is their redeeming souls thing. Because, so far, they've only said/proven that one has to make up for the specific sin they committed then (probably) die before they're sent to Heaven. But, what about Hell-born souls?
          
          1.) Why are those born in Hell not given an opportunity for Heaven when they're first born considering they hadn't committed a sin yet?
          
          2.) Can those born in Hell be "redeemed" and sent to Heaven even though they hadn't done anything sin-worthy?

It took going to a thrift store to find a nice dress, everywhere else only sold crap that looked like a Floridian grandma in the 80s *vomits* I tried every store in a local mall that remotely sold a dress, went to a bigger/more popular/more upper-class mall in the city and tried every store there that remotely sold a dress, tried Khol's, and tried Target. All ugly old-people style. Even if I make it to 50, I wouldn't be caught dead wearing that crap. >_>

Yesterday was, like, the most sociable and active I've been in 17, almost 18 years; and now I don't wanna get outta bed lmfao

I love when the problem creates problems that eventually you can no longer hide the consequences of said problems, then they ask you what the problem is; and when told what the problem is, they deny it??? and then try to gaslight you and try to make you think you're being dramatic, which then ALSO creates more problems??? that then have escalating consequences that they blatantly ignore, then rinse and repeat.
          
          I--
          
          I'm so fcking tired. I don't know anymore, smh.

To the old lady that pulled in to my driveway just as I got to my door after walking home from work yesterday, sorry not sorry for slamming the door in your face when you rolled down your car window to presumably say something to me, but 1.) that was super creepy behavior; 2.) I was already pîssed off and sick and tired of dealing with people that day, I REALLY could not have cared any less for whatever it was you wanted lmao If it happened again, would still slam the door shut, not gonnal lie lol 

Today, I watched someone cut a sandwich with the flat end of a knife. •_•  I was way too tired to say anything because, generally, I know I'm actually a bit mean even if I don't necessarily mean what I say rudely, I'm just blunt and to-the-point because trying to sugar-coat or beat around the bush isn't something I'm very good at, I just end up confusing people or making it worse lol But, I also had a migraine cuz we were steady with customers and ALL OF THEM were freaking stupid and/or annoying. Literally, every person that came up for service asked me something stupid or made some stupid comment about how maybe I could make a suggestion to somebody about how we display crap or ask my manager to DO it -- THAT'S A CORPORATE ISSUE, MANAGERS ARE ALMOST AS LOW ON THE TOTEM POLE AS THE REGULAR WORKERS, YOU NUMBNÙTS!! All-in-all, I'm sick of people today. I need a few years vacation on an isolated island where it's just me and the animals cuz JESUS does Customer Service drain the freaking will to live out of you >_>

See, this is why we need to keep DVDs and so on around.
          
          I had to order the entire Supernatural series on DVD from Amazon because The CW app doesn't have it even though it's a CW show. AMC+, Tubi, and HBO Max don't have it. I have to update my subscription with Hulu if I want to watch it with Hulu, but HOLY FÙCK, it's like a maze with nothing but dead-ends when it comes to trying to figure ANYTHING out with canceling, updating, whatever-- I don't have the patience or temperament to deal with that bullshìt. Prime Video, I have to pay $14.99 a season (and, as we know, there are 15 seasons), and I don't know if that's to keep it permanently or if that's for a limited time. YouTube is $14.99 the first season, then $24.99 for the rest. Sling says I'd have to pay $45-$50/month, go fùck yourself, honestly. And, Netflix is only keeping it until December of this year.
          
          Honestly, I'd rather have the physical thing so I can have it forever and watch it whenever instead of having a billion services that will have it one moment then take it down the next and I have to go on a whole goose-chase again.
          
          Same with video games. I'd rather have the physical copy for a more secure save on progress, and this way I don't have to worry about a glitch in the system that deletes it off the system. Games are expensive, I'd rather not have spent all that money for nothing and have to spend it again for something I already had.

I now know what my mom means when she says people would dìe if she didn't have her cigarette lmao Was getting increasingly pìssed off today that I was ready to go off on EVERYBODY at the drop of a hat, so had my brother give me one of his cigarettes and his lighter (cuz I've never smoked in my life, other than a weed pen) and went outside on my break and had a smoke. Was MUCH more relaxed after that lol

If any of you ever start to run a grocery chain and you're only open 6am-10pm, I need you to understand very clearly that if you do not have anyone working 10pm-6am, 11pm-7am, 12am-8am, 1am-9am, 2am-10am, 3am-11am, 4am-12pm, 5am-1pm (and these next hours are for the departments in the store that don't open until 8am), or 6am-2pm, then you are BEYOND f*cked when it comes to getting ANYTHING done/prepped/whatever by the time customers start rolling up because there is ZERO time for anyone to be able to do anything at all because everyone will have to deal with customers continuously interrupting because nothing is done beforehand and because of this it WON'T get done at all because IT. WILL. NOT. STOP. Do not let greed turn you in to a mentally challenged airhead that ends up losing all their workers because THEY know the outcome of what it means when EVERYONE EVERYWHERE IN THE STORE has to start working at the SAME EXACT time that customers come in and they're not sticking around to feel what it feels like to be f*cked like that.

I am very glad to be introverted to the point I don't have friends cuz there's no way in hèll I'm spending hundreds of dollars on food trays, let alone want to be around more than 2 people at a time lmao Even if I did want to be around more people, those people are chipping in or they can starve lol