Wow

But i guess actions speak louder then words 
          
          So i will show the world that i am a good person, or at least i hope i will be !
          
          I it’s almost the end of 2020 and i wanna start early.. So i forgive everyone that hurt me .. and including myself.. as well as apologizing to everyone i hurt.. even tho a simple set of words don’t mean little to anything.. i do mean it. and one day i hope that you get the world and more, If i knew who i hurt i would try my best to fix it 
          
          Yet not everything can be fix.. 
          
          so cheers! to a early new beginning! A year were i won’t be sad! or have anymore panic attacks a Year where i forgive myself ! and a year where i can be fit
          
            Happy early 2021 everyone 

I’m happy to say i’m free and have forgiven myself.. 
          
          Im happy to say that i have taken off the weights off my legs and now flying after all these years..
          
          am i truly happy? no
          but can i breath better? yes.. 100%
          
          It might take time .. but i will 100% treat this girl right.. i was scared because i didn’t want to hurt her like how i hurt my past Gf but learning is key.. yes maybe my past gf still might hates me and i wouldn’t doubt it she has every right to be
          
          And “we were kids” shouldn’t be a exuse either.. i just made a bad choice and i wish her love and luck.. 
          
          7th grade wasn’t my year.. but i’m almost a adult i need to let middle school go.. 

Cheating) No matter what if you cheat that shit stays with you forever.. Even if you didn’t cheat that shit stays, On both sides, You may even have gotten your Karma but you know damn well that if you cheat and get cheated on it’s the worse
          
          I’ve been cheated on, It’s not a good feeling , but it was karma.. Even tho it was in a time of learning and the other person forgives me i still hold onto it, Now cheating is never right.. and i got what i deserved 
          
          and it hurts it really does hurt but today is the day i let go i have to or else i won’t be able to move on with my life

after years of holding it in this account happily let me go of my fears.. there is stuff that i may hide from the world.. But one day they will come and haunt me back.. and to be honest.. i’m fine with that 
          
          I’m almost at 10k on tiktok..that may not be a lot for some people but for me i feel like a light is shining on me finally, but my past gets in the way of me shinning to my full extent.. So today is the day i just let it all out.. if someone is going to expose me it’s going to be me.. It’s better .. and plus now and days it’s so easy to get cancelled so.. imma do it here

Letting all my anger out on this acc because why not you know?

Being a shitty person doesn’t bring you nothing but pain, And someone who was trying their hardest to fit in to the point there in manipulated people (probably.. idk) into being friends with me it’s not cool

It’s been a crazy couple of years, Low key looking back at this account is scary.. how much power it holds over my life, 
          
          Looking back at this acc.. gives me such joy year such sadness.. Because tbh 4 years ago i was a terrible person.. i really was .. 
          
          I’ve grown to be a better person and seeing all the things i did low key makes me think “I did that?” My messages all the way from my books
          I was one fucked up kid, I’m guessing it’s form the lack of attention i got and me wanting people to see me as me.
          
          But 6-8 grade was terrible years i’m now in high school,A sophomore and i’m much better,And i wanna say sorry to all those i’ve hurt or just caused pain on.. And i fully take the blame and i’m a better person.. 
          To everyone else, Have a great couple of years i love you 

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The fact that 4 years ago I made this acc.. wow

New story:The girl called Bluerose
          
          Problem:Doesn't know what to do
          I'm such a shitty selfie person dam 
          {Undertale person/monster x oc}
          {YouTuber x oc } {how I see my life (on this one it's A WANING