The Author

Lmao I really ditched this whole account huh? Sorry folks, it's been a pleasure but I'ma head out. Thanks for like tolerating me or whatever. Life go brrrr. Smile! Someone loves you :]
          I might still be active on my second account, I might not be. Once again, life go brrr ahah. 

Dear all... Idk like 40 followers and whoever else reads my bullshit stories;
          I think I'm going to give up shipping. It used to make me happy, but now it makes me feel awkward writing. Will I turn on shippers? ABSOLUTELY NOT. You are human and I respect you as such. I may still pop in and read some cute stories, but I myself will not write any because it just isn't making me happy. Have a wonderful day, everyone!
          
          PS. I will still write ship requests, because I enjoy making others happy and writing challenges, and have relationships within my own stories with my own characters, because that does not make me feel weird. 

Ok yeah no feck that I'm gonna give him my other account if he asks there isn't any saving this account 

Haha when your friend finally downloads wattpad but you realise they'll want your account 
          -furiously edits books so they aren't c r i n g e-

I am in physical pain from utter lack of energy, but my dad wont let ne sleep because he wants us to have "normal" sleep schedules
          Basically im running on 5 and a half hours of sleep and I'm going to be ehxausted and sick until i can actually sleep, when I'll get a sudden rush of energy and not be able to sleep until 3 am, and the cycle will repeat over and over and over again until i end up just staying up all night and suffering
          Now, you guys probably dont care, but im telling you this because a) im a little baby and i feel like whining over stupid things and b) i will not be able to update here or really anywhere because my brain doesn't work. Any updates will be slow and not very good because im struggling to not shatter into physical pieces like a broken mirror.
          Bye for a little bit ig

Haha fuck sleeping

HAHA HEY GUESS WHO SAID FUCK SLEEP!
          Im not actually tired so my plan is to stay up until I am tired and hopefully just reset my sleep schedule to a healthy one

MY HEART
          AAAAAAAAAA
          ok im reading a fanfic, big surprise, and they killed off a character who i didnt pay much attention to; I dont watch the youtuber they're based off of
          But the way their friend had reacted TORE MY HEART APART WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME!?
          but then Techno swooped in like a boss so i felt better

I am ay-ok now, guys. Had like a mental break down, my dad let me use his headphones (mine wont work for whatever reason and so I've been music-less for WEEKS) and I hopped in vc with Cherry and Divine. I didn't say much but it was nice to hear their voices. So yeah sorry for spamming my descent into insanity lmao

I feel like a Tiger, prowling in its cage, back and forth, back and forth. Nothing changes. Wake up, wish I was dead, play games, write a little and be bored all day, struggle to sleep, fall asleep, sleep is restless and dreams are only pulling me further into insanity, wake up again, the cycle repeats over and over and over and over and over again! Where the hell is my mind!? My body has driven itself into a corner, my restlessness pushing away the only human I've had contact with in DAYS. WEEKS. He doesn't deserve my snappy, sarcastic, hostile attitude! He's doing his best, yet here I am, ignoring him, opting to spend my day prowling the internet, prowling my cage like the trapped Tigers at the zoo.
          
           Divine, Cherry, Charlie, Star, everyone. Zoomy and Luna and Angel, heck even the updates from Blue help. If it weren't for them, I'd be driven to madness.
          
          I'm sorry
          Please don't give up on me
          I'll be okay 
          Ill be okay
          Ill be okay
          Im going to be okay
          
          Please let me be okay