Tanya Haven

Well my manager rang he said I hate to break the news
          But the label called today they said they have to cut you loose
          I felt broken like a vase that'd fallen from the roof
          Tears rolling down my face lord what am I to do
          
          [Chorus]
          I felt pain in my life so far
          A fractured wrist and a broken heart
          But this is sure to leave a nasty scar, one that might not heal
          So I said
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          And I don't know how I'll survive
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          I'll admit it's a struggle
          Finding light in the tunnel
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst it's the worst day
          Of my life
          
          [Verse 2]
          Well I gave up my degree and I moved away from home
          I was following my dream now there's nowhere I can go
          So I called up my mom and I was bawling on the phone
          I was acting like a child but I was all the way grown
          
          [Chorus]
          I felt pain in my life so far
          A fractured wrist and a broken heart
          But this is sure to leave a nasty scar, one that might not heal
          So I said
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          And I don't know how I'll survive
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          I'll admit it's a struggle
          Finding light in the tunnel
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst it's the worst day
          Of my life
          
          [Verse 3]
          So I thought to myself that now is time to choose
          I can pick myself up or I can give in to the blues
          So I swore in my heart that I was never gonna lose
          I would crawl until I made it cause I got something to prove
          
          [Chorus]
          I felt pain in my life so far
          A fractured wrist and a broken heart
          But this is sure to leave a nasty scar, one that might not heal
          So I said
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          And I don't know how I'll survive
          It's the worst, it's the worst day of my life
          I'll admit it's a struggle
          Finding light in the tunnel
          This is the worst day of my life
          It's the worst it's the worst day
          Of my life
          
          

The way it surrounds us
          No light to graze your skin again
          The way it has bound us
          Like a clock, our time is winding word
          
          And I don't wanna live my life by your police
          And I don't wanna be caught up in vanity
          And I don't wanna swallow pills you offer me
          And I just need to supress these memories
          
          I think I've already lost you now!
          Every trace disappeared somehow
          I think I've already lost you to the war on falling stars!
          
          Embracing the darkness
          Telling you that it'll be okay
          But it's more than harmless
          This disease will rip your soul away
          
          And I don't wanna live my life by your police
          And I don't wanna be caught up in vanity
          And I don't wanna swallow pills you offer me
          And I just need to surpress these memories
          
          I think I've already lost you now!
          Every trace disappeared somehow
          I think I've already lost you to the war on falling stars!
          
          I know there's no escape from these allies becoming enemies
          I know there's no redemption cause I've already lost
          I think I've already lost you now...
          
          I think I've already lost you now!
          Every trace disappeared somehow
          I think I've already lost you to the war on falling stars!
          
          

How's it supposed to be real when it's all just in your head
          Sometimes I wonder how would it be like
          If I was dead
          
          Who will be there to heal my wounds
          And besides people are mostly fake
          
          I know that I'm not like the others,
          The person I used to be is no longer me,
          And these wounds will take forever to heal
          
          How's it supposed to be real when it's all just in your head
          And I'm always slowly breaking inside
          Just stay and watch me die
          
          'Cause I know my scars will never heal
          And you will never truly know how I feel,
          So just stay and watch me break
          
          I don't know who I am and what am I supposed to be,
          Intrusive thoughts are breaking my sanity,
          
          How's it supposed to be real when it's all just in your head
          Cause I know my scars will never heal
          
          Couldn't stop getting attached,
          But now I've started by the scratch
          I hope these scars will heal
          Until it breaks my sanity
          
          What is reality, my shatters of sanity,
          you will never truly know how I feel,
          So just stay and watch me break
          

I will find the time, we will find the timing
          'Cause you are on my mind, I hope that you don't mind it
          You know that I want you, you know that I want you next to me
          But if you need some space I will step away
          
          And I know it might sound stupid but for me, yeah yeah
          I just gotta keep believing and I've heard
          
          Some say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          Just say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          
          I promise that I'll try, that I will try to meet someone
          And there's so many guys, who told me I deserve someone
          I wanna call you up but maybe it will only make it worse
          I guess that I just don't know what to do with myself
          
          'Cause I know it might sound stupid but for me, yeah yeah
          I just gotta keep believing and I've heard
          
          Some say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          Just say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          
          Just say you'll love me one day
          Just say you'll love me one day
          
          I'll give you space to the moon if it's what you need
          Just say you one day will bring back yourself to me
          
          Some say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          Just say you will love me one day
          And I will wait, I will wait to get your loving one day
          
          Just say you'll love me one day
          (Just say you'll love, just say you'll love me one day)
          Just say you'll love me one day
          
          

I'll endure the exile
          I'll endure the exile
          The darkness of night falls around my soul
          And the hunter within loses control
          Gotta let it out, gotta let it out
          Gotta let it out, gotta let it out
          This demon inside has a hold of me
          Clenching its power, trying to break free
          Gotta let it out, gotta let it out
          Gotta let it out, gotta let it out
          Move fast baby, don't be slow
          Step aside, reload, time to go
          I can't seem to control
          All this rage that's inside me
          Pullin' shots, aimin' dots, yeah I don't miss
          Branded by fire, born in the abyss
          Red hot temper, I just can't resist
          All this vengeance inside me
          All of these thoughts runnin' through my head
          Arm on fire, veins burnin' red
          Frustration is gettin' bigger
          Bang, bang, bang, pull my Devil Trigger!
          Embrace the darkness that's within me
          No hiding in the shadows anymore
          When this wickedness consumes me
          Nothing can save you and there's no way out
          I'm a wildfire you won't tame
          Igniting my temper, can't put out my flame
          There's no way to contain
          This storm swelling inside me
          I'm a bomb you can't diffuse
          Might just accept you're gonna lose
          Can't turn down, I refuse
          To hold back anymore
          All of these voices inside of my head
          Blinding my sight in a curtain of red
          Frustration is getting bigger
          Bang, bang, bang, pull my Devil Trigger!
          When the night ends it's not over
          We fight through to get closer
          Like a silver bullet piercing through
          I throw myself into you

I feel so tired that I literally ask myself why am I still alive

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