I don't normally do night posts like this, but since it's getting close to my bedtime, I might as well get this thing off my chest before I go off to sleep.
It's been a long, long time since I have posted on here. I have been really, really going through it this week and this weekend. This depression sucks, it's not fun at all and it just takes the joy out of everything.
Like usual though, my words sadly can't do my feeling justice, but I know I have to try...
When you lose a very close friendship, it almost feels like a death in a way. no matter how many, it never gets any easier, and they are all equally painful in their own ways...
A few come along that you may never get over. I have one of those, and it's so painful that I ever get sleep-deprived. woking up at 6 AM, balling my eyes out and wishing this special person would come back to me, dreaming about it, longing for it. for me, the words are lost, locked in my brain are the memories of that best friend forever. I think about her every single day.
Until sleep comes, I am fully relaxed laid my body down for the night, and I think of her...
Guys, if you are struggling with anything, reach out, talk to someone. Writing is a form of self-care. Do that.
Goodnight. Talk to you all next time.