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[This is a vent :P
I am appart of 12 roleplays on discord. How do I juggle all these roleplays? I don't.
All of them are basically dead. Some older some as new as 3 days ago. The two most recent ones I enjoy thoroughly, well, I enjoyed thoroughly. One doesn't really matter so I'll focus on the other.
This roleplay started as a culmination of interests between my friend and I. We had this other person join and they're pretty cool. But, my friend at one point turned to me and said "you might want to be a little patient, I'm balancing this and another roleplay" and I just let them be.
Like one or two days later they stop responding. When I question it they say "sorry trying to juggle this rp and two others" and I'm just like ok and take note that they've joined another roleplay.
Like the next day they say they're "not in the mood" and they promise me that night "I'll rp here again tomorrow"
^^ did not happen. They barely said a thing in chat. They said they were "just watching" as me and this other person rp.
I had a chat with them last night. They are now involved in 4 rps including the one that we were doing. They says it's stressful and I call them out. Of the 3 other roleplays 1 doesn't happen when we're going, another I have access to and I can see its activity, and the other I have no idea about, but I know they made it and half the members were asleep.
So they abandoned our roleplay that I sincerely enjoyed for two other roleplays and used our roleplay that they don't even talk in as one of their excuses to why they stopped rping with me.
You think I'd be livid, but no, I'm just depressed.
This has hurt me so much and I don't want to mess with it too much so I don't look clingy.
Fucking anxiety kills]