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I'm in such a good place right now?? Not good. I mean I kind of hate myself and I'm hella stressed, but I'm laying in bed and I can't stop thinking about something really good. Even though my life may or may not be crumbling under my feet I am still standing. Life kind of sucks sometimes, but some days I lay down trying to sleep and I just feel okay. Its like being drunk without the hangover. I'm happy right here right now. In the morning I'll forget, and I'll remember how my brother is leaving and I'm gonna be lost without him, but for now I'm focused all on her. On them. On it. On all the good things life has to offer me at this second. I'm really really sad a lot of the time and I hide it pretty damn well behind the alcoholism and shitty humor, but for now? I'm fine. And its not because something happened or didn't happen, its because I'm trying so hard to see the good. And right now? Its working damn well. I love you. Not sure who that's aimed towards, but fuck it whoever is reading this I love you. Because guess what? There's good days and there's bad days and there's pure shit days. And today was a good one. So yeah. Love ya. Ignore this odd post, I'm just too much of a pussy to write this much anywhere else. C'est la vie bitches, embrace the good, fuck the rest.
